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18th|Jan|2011
6:41
PM
Letting go comes when
we finally realize "I CANNOT CHANGE THE PAST no matter how much I
wish, want, pray or cry. I cannot change what happened, how it
happened, or why it happened. I cannot undo anything. And every time
my mind drifts back with unforgiveness, anger, fear, regret, shame,
guilt, blame or whatever negative "could've been", I MUST realize it
happened and now I MUST let it go--or else face an unhappy tomorrow.
Today, is what I have. Today, I must embrace for it is the only thing
that is real--the only thing I can mold and shape into a positivity,
joy, peace, and love.
Crystal Andrus
Only
when I let go.. it comes back to me.. it comes back!!
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Recently from
disneystore.com I purchased these for the kitchen :D since I only make
egg and white rice these are more than enough for me :)
I haven't received this Best of Mickey
Mouse Spreader Set even though I ordered it.
Apron
For Salt and Pepper
Measuring Cups to teach my patients the exchange
list of carbohydrates
cookie jar
ملاّسي..
I want to own the stainless steel Flatware
set :D aba aba.. very nice to eat using
Mickey mouse forks and
knives. Don't know why I did not order them at once!
14th|Jan|2011
6:41
PM
Sometimes, we put
barriers and obstacles for ourselves by thinking negatively... I fear
beforehand, and fear holds me back from doing many things. Sometimes, there is no NEED to fear, and I still get
frightened because I worry too much! My heart is fragile, & I am
working hard on it. & my soul is very weary these days. The
weirdest thing is that although I am scared, I don't seem to bother
once I am sad! If I am extremely unhappy, I will confront my fears
without bothering.. because in that instant as such, I will be
expecting anything. Even death won't frighten me.
I shiver
most of the time, & I need
something to set peace in me. Thankfully, reading seems to be working
like a sedative that alleviates some of my wounds, but not all of
them. The thing is, when reading works as a remedy, I get addicted and
I wish to have 6 continuous months of leave from work in order to be
fully recovered! Something that cannot happen in my wildest dreams
unless and until I resign.
Speaking of books,
I ended up loving
Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy. Translated by Richard Pevear & his
wife Larissa Volokhonsky. I precisely chose this version because 1) it
was the winner of the Pen/Book-of-the-month club translation prize. 2)
It was selected for Oprah's book club.
It is a
very big novel that reflects the Russian
society in the 19th century, but a very
interesting one. It is one of the stories that is very hard to
be forgotten. An epic.
 It is about
Anna, an aristocratic
married woman gifted with a striking beauty that leaves men smitten.
Her talk is charming, her moves are impressive, and her character is
honest and caring. She is also intelligent and craves a great passion
for literature. She loves reading, and she writes books for children
:) she is famous in the Petersburg
society... Married to
Alexei Alexandrovich Karenin,
a very religious old man, and a high ranking government minister. He
is also a book lover. Everything in his life seems perfect, but to
him, family matters are duties he must fulfil without passion!
Anna, falls in love
with count Vronsky. A handsome military officer who is
ridiculously wealthy. At first he seems to be the hero who is going to
give away his life for his love, but after a while something very
disappointing in his character arises... & as a result, Anna thinks of
a tragic and abrupt way of punishing him... Poor Anna! My feelings for
her alter from admiration to disgust and finally sympathy.
Everything in the
novel amazes me despite the long talks about AGRICULTURE by the
agnostic Levin, the stretched and endless conversations of
political economic theories by people in the society, and the very
long names of Russians.. However, such things are not considered to be
downfalls. I find that the good outweighs the bad. It is the social
part which hooks up the reader. Plus, I was very lucky to discuss this
novel with a Russian patient :D
By the time I was
done reading, I felt that each character was sorely missed. It is in
that instant that I knew how powerful my emotions were for them.
I do recommend reading it,
especially if you're new to Tolstoy's style. his style in writing is
outstanding.. Something he mastered about the flow of events and its
consistency left me with a dropped jaw. Seriously, I don't know how he
managed to bring all the characters together! And his way of
describing his 3 dimensional characters couldn't be any better! He
even described how the dogs felt!! That amazingly left me cheered!
Maybe it is called a 4 dimensional character :p The plots, turning
points, and growth of characters are unpredictable and surprisingly
unexpected. Do read it.
7th|Jan|2011
4:00
PM
When a lost piece of
puzzle is found to be placed in its accurate place, there is not only a sound
of a "tickkkkkk" but also a strong feeling of assurance that it is
the
RIGHT one. The happiness which comes along is indescribable... It
reminds me of my own life and its scattered pieces....
I am forever grateful
to Jeff
Kinney for the exclusive books he writes, which create so much
fun into my life... At first, I thought his books were regular comics,
& I am this kind of person who is not a fan of comics! I've tried
reading several other books such as Big Nate & The
Billionaire Boy, & they were good, but they did not hold my
interest for a long time, and I was not intrigued at all. My
happy hormones subsided as soon as I was done with the books, & I no
longer remember the effect of those books. Maybe they were not
suitable for adults! It is not always easy for the authors to write
books that can be interesting for adults and kids at the same time!
Just like when I read Theodore Boone by the famous writer
John Grisham, I felt that his skill did not lie in juvenile
literature!
However, I find Greg,
who appears to be the main character of Wimpy Kid Diaries, leaping off the pages... What is
more interesting is that Jeff's comics are suitable for adults and
kids, which makes it more fun for me and my little bro to be on the
same wave length.. ^_^
So, if you despise BOOKS for their length, and
wish to
start reading something light and hilarious, I highly
recommend DIARY OF A WIMPY KID.
Believe me, I carry
them with me and whenever I am free I read them at work!! They're
funny.. they're fast paced.. & I am always left in a state of
merriment...............
4th|Jan|2011
10:00
AM
Happiness & Peace in Her
Soul...
Once upon a time there were true
happiness and peace in her soul...
they were taken away from her by force...
She thought she'd find solace
in books, but books left her in great torment.
She sees people she
ran away from between the lines... No matter how hard she abstains
herself from thinking, she still sees them.
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