Tell you what! I was
one of those lucky ppl who witnessed the beauty of HER... I saw
a dove in baby pink with pearls all over her body, hovering around the
tables of the audience, casting the light of her own brilliance to the
universe. And the roses which were embracing her waist left me
speechless, for I realized that flowers can be smart sometimes!
Surely, they sensed that they'd look more admirable on the dove. It's
called "the combination of softness and bright colors"...
As she was smiling, I saw tears in the eyes of those
who loved her so much. Those tears meant nothing but the fear of the
dove's departure... [How could they ever endure being away from such a
tenderhearted soul??!!]
And the moment her couple arrived, he turned mesmerized
by the charm of her deep lustrous eyes and her tulip red cheeks... He
seemed he's been smitten by her for so long... Now he owns her &
everyone envies him..
CONGRATULATION my dear M
Dear Angel, you remember our special day?
check it out
On Saturday the 21st/Jan [yesterday], I spent my day
far away from home and I suffered a lot for some reason, but I was
optimistic ;) Of course I didn't forget to pay a heed to one of the
old book shops.
I was staying awake even though I was so tired because
I didn't get my chance of sleep the night before. Maybe because I was
a bit nervous or stressed.. Maybe because the weather was too cold.. @
night, I had to get out of the house again, so I couldn't sleep or
rest again!
SHOPPING SHOPPING AND SHOPPING! It really is a relief
sometimes especially when you find
what you want & take your lil sis with you ;) I got nice jeans,
t-shirts, pajamas, slippers, and BOOKS.. WANTED TO GET MORE STUFF, but
unfortunately the shops were closing..
Anyhow, while I was waiting for HER<= My ( Milly Molly
Mandy) to finish eating the ice-cream, I called someone to ask about
something very important to me.................... WHAT SHE SAID WAS
SHOCKING! She wasn't sure of the news, but she knew it wouldn't please
me.. I could sense the sadness from her voice... My heart sank to
floor and I couldn't breathe.. Tears
streamed down my cheeks with agony and Thank God I was wearing a
veil... I said: "OK" and then I thought I switched off the
mobile....... but I actually didn't...
After half an hour, another person called to talk about
the same annoying issue......... & what she said scared the hill out
of me... She was trying to be calm,
but I knew very well that things won't be the same anymore...
@ home, I ate crappy food... I always regret it after
eating JUNK, but yesterday I accepted it because I was nervous and
sad.... I murmured: "Is it really approaching? I think yes.. then why
am I sad and scared? I've been waiting for it for so long"
I decided to remain silent...
To my twin-mate, sorry I won't open my mouth..
To Scarlett, don't be curious you won't know it
either!
To my mum, what's on your mind is absolutely wrong..
don't try to guess!
AFTER ALL, HEHEHEHE it's only a trick! sorry I lied...
they were only mere words.. I am ok and nothing wrong happened.. I
just wanted to scare you for some reason LOL.
12th|Jan|2006 10:11 PM Happy
Eid..
Hi
everyone :) Missed you so much... it was never sufficient for me to
update twice only during the month of Dec 2005. I had zillion of
things to do that led me in a state of sealing my lips and hiding my
words... Yet, Dec was the month of my successful
accomplishments...............I've experienced many important things
in a very short period of time. Lemme pause for a minute...... I was a
complete different person! I could be proactive instead of being
reactive... I've held more responsibilities & I stayed up late every
night 2 study & concentrate on my long term goals.
I feel that Freud couldn't analyze people's behaviors
properly! So, I tried to analyze mine alone..
The reason behind how to gain back my motives and
ambitions was something I've always wanted to solve... Something I've
always dreamt of & wanted to reach..
Before two years, I allowed the opportunity of reaching
my ever lasting precious goal to slip through my fingers... I gave it
all up because of silly reasons.. It was because I've heard a word
that created a wide gap between my goal & the path which I had to walk
on.. It was also because I wasn't prepared enough to be in such
environment... & A moment of weakness can be the main reason of your
sadness...
After realizing the big mistake I've committed, I felt
pessimistically dead! Yet, my precious ambition was running through my
veins.. Glittering with every tear.. Burning me with each drop of
heart's blood... Hence, it was normal for me to go through a chain of
misery, despair, distraction.. etc
Thank God, during Dec, I was trying my best to mend and
re-build up the broken pieces that I broke.. It wasn't an easy task
though... I cried, I struggled, & finally.... I won the war which I
waged inside my head..
Now, despite all the difficulties + the mental +
physical problems I am going through these days :p, I know what I want
and what I'll do.. Now I do have to follow the procedures silently &
be patient coz objections of some people will find their way to
disturb me..
...............
Here are some of the pix I've taken during Dec
A day with my aunt...
I went there.. & I got a nice collection of Islamic
Creed books by Dr. Umar Sulaiman Al-Ashqar
Books are keys to wisdom's treasure
Yummy.. Oh my tummy :D
I
was glad to get along with my aunt... She's optimistic, active-spirit,
& human-development's lover... Together, we were attending Islamic
lectures & chit chat about interesting issues... It was soOo much fun
to be with her... I do like to hang out with those who're ambitious...
I do love those who want to continue learning and learning and
learning...
...............
10th/Jan (Eid)
I was so happy to see Samz + Mn~Dubai ;)
it's been so so long since I last saw you guys!! You don't know how
cheerful I turn to be the moment I see you... I missed you wallah
Mn~dubai, you looked different, but N.I.C.E and
E.L.E.G.A.N.T mashallah :) by the way, I am thinking of reading
ذاكرة
الجسد
Samz, hehe.. I thought scorpions never change,
but you changed the equation.. I think you changed a lot! you started
hiding stufffff instead of telling me :'( don't worry I forgave you ;)
Unknown, Fofo & M, thanks a
lot for showing me your BEAUTIFUL faces :p
...............
Yesterday 11th/Jan
Yesterday,
as I was breathing the fresh air of the beach, fears attacked me &
caused my entire body to shiver... I was scared to death for some
reason... The words I've heard from someone about my results brought a
lump to my throat... I murmured: "is the end really approaching?" Then
I bowed my head and smiled instead of revealing my tears... I smiled
because I remembered the dream I've dreamt about my grandfather on the
day of *3arafa* 9th/Jan/2006.. I remembered his brilliant smile and
the green hall which means (something optimistic) inshallah... I
smiled because I needed to see him :') His smile means the world to
me......
...............
Today
Alright I am still scared, but shhh silent... Reading
is my healing therapy.. :) You see, I promised myself not to get more
books until I finish reading these:
1) Belief in Allah by Dr. Umar Sulaiman Al Ashqar
2) Angels and demons by Dan Brown
3) The 7 habits of highly effective teens
4) The brothers K
5)
تمتع بالاسترخاء وخذ الأمور بالروية
6)
ثمانون عاما بحثا عن مخرج
7) Harry potter (BOOK 1)
8) Shantaram
9)
غرفة
مثالية لرجل مريض
10)
مئة عام من العزلة
11) The Qur'an leads the way to science by Harun Yahya
12) Kane and Abel
13) P.S I love you
14) Anne of the green gables
15) Paradise
16) Sister of my heart
17) Doctors
18) The tale of genji
19) The tea rose
20) Tonight you're mine
21) Cedric
22) The choice (Book 1) By Ahmad Deedat
23) The choice (Book 2)
24) A suitable boy <= it will take so much of my time
Tell you what! I was
one of those lucky ppl who witnessed the beauty of HER... I saw
a dove in baby pink with pearls all over her body, hovering around the
tables of the audience, casting the light of her own brilliance to the
universe. And the roses which were embracing her waist left me
speechless, for I realized that flowers can be smart sometimes!
Surely, they sensed that they'd look more admirable on the dove. It's
called "the combination of softness and bright colors"...
especially when you find
what you want & take your lil sis with you ;) I got nice jeans,
t-shirts, pajamas, slippers, and BOOKS.. WANTED TO GET MORE STUFF, but
unfortunately the shops were closing..
Tears
streamed down my cheeks with agony and Thank God I was wearing a
veil... I said: "OK" and then I thought I switched off the
mobile....... but I actually didn't...
She was trying to be calm,
but I knew very well that things won't be the same anymore... 
Hi
everyone :) Missed you so much... it was never sufficient for me to
update twice only during the month of Dec 2005. I had zillion of
things to do that led me in a state of sealing my lips and hiding my
words... Yet, Dec was the month of my successful
accomplishments...............I've experienced many important things
in a very short period of time. Lemme pause for a minute...... I was a
complete different person! I could be proactive instead of being
reactive... I've held more responsibilities & I stayed up late every
night 2 study & concentrate on my long term goals. 
I
was glad to get along with my aunt... She's optimistic, active-spirit,
& human-development's lover... Together, we were attending Islamic
lectures & chit chat about interesting issues... It was soOo much fun
to be with her... I do like to hang out with those who're ambitious...
I do love those who want to continue learning and learning and
learning...
Yesterday,
as I was breathing the fresh air of the beach, fears attacked me &
caused my entire body to shiver... I was scared to death for some
reason... The words I've heard from someone about my results brought a
lump to my throat... I murmured: "is the end really approaching?" Then
I bowed my head and smiled instead of revealing my tears... I smiled
because I remembered the dream I've dreamt about my grandfather on the
day of *3arafa* 9th/Jan/2006.. I remembered his brilliant smile and
the green hall which means (something optimistic) inshallah... I
smiled because I needed to see him :') His smile means the world to
me......
