17| 10 | 2002  2:00 AM   Miracle can't sleep!!

I'm struggling.. I'm stifling my pain… I miss them… I miss them being around… Some of them were like angels.. they were gentle & rare.. their smiles were so brilliant that I still feel ‘em smiling at me…  whenever I think of them A river of tears  rolls down my cheeks… Yesterday they were sharing my life with me L L I cannot adequately describe the pain… That day was the day of many tears… I won't forget it…

Others… were like devils… they were ingenious in their devilishness…. their smiles were wicked… They were liars… They loved to deceive others…. They hurt me pretty badly… just because I gave them everything….. I had never once been anything but kind with them… They practiced innocence… they practiced how to be vicious…They don’t have something called “conscience “but I don’t know why  I still meet them and talk 2 them in my dreams… What can I say?? I’m just stunned! I hate to feel this way… I hate to say how much I really loved them L I really don’t know why they had to leave me…I won't hurt someone as they did… All I can see are the days flying by so fast, for it is now October… They will one day be just fine.. for they  still have their life... I'm just wondering... why this must be taken away?

Just the thought of them being gone from my life is too much for me to bear. coz I truly loved them... They meant so much to me :( I  don't know why they are still loved so much by so many!!

Sad fish

That Zanooba's fish was in my room.. And I just threw it away.... Because Zannooba didn't take well care of it... Yukkie...

My dad brought a very cute cat for zannooba ( As a gift).. But my Mum got angry from it and threw it away...

What an annoying cat!

I don't know how to study! I can't study... my thoughts are not in the school and studies... It's boring...

Some old friends will go and new friends will come, the worst possible thing we can do is to grow apart from our own needs. Growing apart from friends... although painful... can often make room for new friends & new experiences. But there's nothing like an old friend....

I had been friends with her since third grade. Back then, we spent every weekend at each other's house and traded notes every day at school. We were by anyone's standards the best of friends. Then high school started & everything changed. The first day of school is difficult and scary for anyone, but it was even more so for me...

We were always together,

We swore we'd never part.

Where I was, there you were,

best of friends from the start.

We both looked alike,

With hair & eyes of black.

When you were happy, I smiled,

When I was upset, you'd frown.

There was only you in my world,

And no one but me in yours.

We shared everything friends could share,

our music, our clothes, our chores.

Then suddenly this friendship we knew,

Began to change too fast.

The magic of "us" had disappeared,

It was clear this wouldn't last.

We struggled and struggled to save it all.

We were put to the ultimate test.

Then before we knew it, we had both changed,

In the long run, for the best.

We had become two different people,

As our friendship reached great dangers.

The two little girls who were once best friends,

Are now young ladies & strangers.

By Emily Boivie

Who would I cry to when I was having a really bad day? Who would I laugh with over the memories we have shared? Who who who?

I cry I cry I cry alone, all by myself... I can't feel better... They were gone... I still feel their shadows... Sometimes people have to change... Their life might have 2 rearrange...

When you have a good friend you want to keep her.

You see her everyday.

You have special nicknames,

And funny things you like to say.

Then something happens as you grow older.

Interests change

Your lives do, too.

You don't see that friend as much as you used to.

You slowly drift apart,

Day by day,

Night by night.

You don't realize it,

But when you do

You start to write.

The first letter is long,

The one you get back is, too.

But neither remembers to write again

To the friend who wrote to you.

Time elapses,

Your mind forgets.

You start to drift.

Until you come across that letter,

The precious letter you saved.

And you think,

I wonder if she's made new friends,

And what friendships she has broke?

You remember the saying:

Make new friends, but keep the old.

One is silver; & the other gold.

You know she's a good friend,

You don't want to lose

So you take out some paper

And think of the right words to use.

You make an effort

To express to your friend

That friends of the heart,

You will be 'til the end.

By Mollie F. Drabik

I wanted to read "Daughter of Fortune" By Isabel Allende, but Bannooteh Told me that it would be boring & I would not like it....

Hmm.. Then I thought of " Tuesdays with Morrie " By Mitch Albom... Finally I decided to read "Sister of my heart" By Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni.

 

7 | 10 | 2002  7:51 PM

You formed my life... with your own, & you taught me sensitivity & loyalty, how to love & to        give. You inspired my dreams & ambitions, helping me along the way....  I thank you for your caring guidance.... It has allowed me to fully appreciate the joy of living. Mom, sorry for being so stubborn & not obedient sometimes I was idiot & careless! My hope is to live my life as u have done.. A life of loving inspiration...

 

Those perfumes were made just for me & for De-Rosa (Pink)....

I'd better go & study well... Owaa... we'll have an exam tomorrow....

  

 

    5 | 10 | 2002  9:50 AM

Yesterday the children had a wonderful party.. Of course because my arrival was such a miracle to them :)

The clown was so funny

Happy?

Hey hey hey.. don't scream!

I.. I... have one tooth here and one tooth there... So I can.. eat my balloon... 333am..

It was tasty.. yummy

We sang:

I Love you... you love me... We are happy family... with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.. want you say you love me too....

I thought my uncle would attend the party... Sadly, he was busy.. offf... Hmm.. check her site.. wow wow.. it's wonderful.. Ok pals... I've gotta go.... bye bye

  

 

3 | 10 | 2002  4:3 PM

SO So so.. To the furniture shop again? yes yes yes!! with whom?? My Mom!!!

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what do you think? So royal? hmmm

Luxurious?

????

Well... Going with my Mom to " interiors " was so much better & exciting than I thought it would be... Yay.. I decided to be more close to her :)

Finally I decided to read " Tell me your dreams " By Sidney Sheldon... DxB Girl, where r u dear?? haa? @ least call!!!  U don't wanna call?? ahaaa... It's ok... you'll see!!

Shamma shamma shamma... P-A-I-N is never on her mind, but always in her body.. wallah inzain... lool.. her strongest muscle, her heart, knows no rest, for it is continually striving towards its goal... A winner always comes back, even when the  says differently, just 2 prove that she's a winner.... Through your changing... I want 2 ask that you take me along with you... I don't mean that I want you to tell me every thought you have along the way, but 2 remember that I'm here ( Alone & on my own )... Wherever & whenever u need me... And I hope that you'll remember that I'm on your side... And even If I can't always help you win, there will never be a day when I won't be cheering you on...

Remember  me if you need someone to talk to.. I'll always listen to you attentively... & support you wholeheartedly. When your experience a joyful occasion in your life, be sure 2 invite me :) 2 share your happiness with you. And when you have no one else to turn to, I'll always be here for you & do whatever I can 2 help... Remember me & the wonderful friendship that we shared ... And always take comfort in the fact that you are so special in my eyes...

You know, Smiles are so hard 2 come by... & I'm feeling down... I tried to spread my wings 2 fly & I couldn't get off the ground :( Time runs out before I'm through & it's over before I begin... The little things always get to me & I just can't win... I dunno what 2 say.. & I'm afraid of being alone... Aaaah... do u know what?? when my sadness comes 2 an end... and inshallah inshallah everything is going right.. I'll always think of my family And will always keep their love in sight... Because they will never try to hurt me... And they will always try to be with me...

Will you be there?

  

 

1 | 10 | 2002  12:14 PM

Hmmm... I guess Unknown is suffering now @ her own jail... lool.. And I'm relaxing and having so much fun here :)

Yum Yum Yummy

Guess what? I miss her so much :( Everything has changed in me... It wasn't easy @ all... Because our differences pulled us in new directions... But we always knew that we cared about one another. That's the beautiful part of being who we are... She has been my laughter when tears seemed my only comfort... I never told her the secret of my life... maybe I was waiting for an appropriate opportunity... That opportunity never came... Shamma I know what will happen next... that's why... I'm not feeling the same way I did before... U didn't understand anything, did u?

Anyway... check this... & this...

I didn't study hard yesterday... I was so sleepy... snoopy hoo hoo... snoopy snoopy...