3rd|OCT|2009 3:06 PM THIS IS MY REAL HOME

Happy Belated Eid, kidding! Sorry.. Whenever I used to plan to add a new entry, something would always deprive me from doing so. Nevertheless, now I would like to add a very cordial "HI" to all those who remembered me while I was away...

I keep one pic of me inside and one pic of my brother in a heart-shaped frame...

My eid was not the perfect eid... I fell on my knees while stepping down on the stairs... & I couldn't walk properly for a few days... Also my lips turned black!

The feeling is always so dreadful when you wait for somebody to show up even though you know they will never come back! The process of waiting forever hurts...

If I ever see my brother again, I will hold him in my arms and I will never let him go... never... I either go away with him, or let him remain with me. My nights are getting longer whenever he crosses my mind... I shed endless tears while smiling... Smiling, for he never failed to express his love and concern...

I am not myself.. & I will never be the same again... How can I be the same?? My right eye is missing... a very precious part of me is not in its place...

I AM NEVER TOO BUSY TO COMPLAIN ABOUT HOW BUSY I AM!

I had problems in workplace... I had problems in my personal life... I still do have... & Yeah... I was trying to drive whenever I got the chance to... "driving" was not a pleasant thing to do especially when it came to "PARKING", so I considered it another problem at that time. I do have my own car, but I cannot rid myself from the driver's help in our lovely crowded city.

I have a great "LOVE" for food...

& a great love for TWEETY.. I got this pj when I drove for the first time to Festival City with my sis 3allaya.

The first pendant..

This was the first electronic thing purchased..

I phone 3G S is raw3a... I got the white one. The internet speed is extremely fast! and the applications are more than enough.. but it's gunna take a lot of "money" if you don't know how to use it properly. If you ever plan to buy it, I suggest you read this page & this one too. Don't think by switching off the 3G in your phone will stop withdrawing money!!! It takes money from mine even when I open my wireless connection.. So read those pages above before making any plan to purchase an I PHONE.

I purchased many applications which deal with diet and nutrition ^_^

*Sigh*... I had hope in something, & that hope turned to fear... Sometimes we do the wrong things believing that we're doing them for the right reasons! A very trivial mistake can change the course of lifetime! Currently, I am having a very hard time making up my mind! I am not realizing what I am throwing myself into... Sometimes I wish it is just a nightmare... I don't want it to be in my reality, but the fact confirms it is REAL.. so real. I do not wanna HURT anyone.. and I know that I will "Hurt" them sooner or later... & just the thought of hurting someone who sincerely loves me causes a chill to strike through my flesh!

I HAVE TO BE COMPLETELY DECISIVE..............................