Yupppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. I love
myself when I am not stressed.. As soon as I woke up this morning I
felt that I was optimistic and happy... I don't know how sometimes I
get so bored of being stressed and I easily unleash myself from it!!!
Today, we had a test about RESEARCH
METHODS which doesn't hold much of my interest!! it's a huge subject
that lacks love and passion [especially because STATISTICS is involved
intensively in it], but very beneficial. Yesterday I did not consist
time to study properly.. I was so engrossed searching for interesting
blogs to read & I came across many AMAZING ones... I never realized
that BLOGGING is an artttttttttttt that not everyone is skilled at!!!
I thought it was a mere a writing process! But now I know that I need
to make some changes!! I need to bring up more nutritional & health
issues so that people benefit from it. I think the beauty of Science
comes when it is shared with others.. =D Wait I won't share my
knowledge now! I need to be inspired first =) everything needs
inspiration so that it turns out to be interesting.. don't you agree?
With regards to the test, I think I did
not do extremely bad.. & our instructor is an amicable man after all..
:p Let's hope he'll be tolerant once he sees my dreadful handwriting
due to the lack of enough space!!!
Ehim.. I decided to take a break today..
I DESERVE IT!!! I am not gunna work on anything.. I'll spend my time
accessing the net and chit chatting with friends =)
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My current dreams: WELL.. I wanna
graduate as soon as possible :D & I wanna work... I wanna interact
with patients! I also wanna have my masters as soon as possible. I
wanna make a positive change.. & I am so optimistic and satisfied,
because my friends are willing to work with me.. Together we can form
a proactive team.
Things I wanna buy:
1) A musical instrument.. :D maybe a
piano..
& I'll add more to my list later.
B-Flee Birthday :)
it's my sis's birthday =) Happy birthday
sis =) Love you...
Baskin's cakes are so yummy
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Let them go.... and carry on.
People come and people gOo.. If you love
some people so much and if you really care about them and you find
them to be so cold towards you... Then try to know why.. ask them and
open up your heart for them.. Maybe there's something troubling them..
If they don't seem to react to your concerns out of wanting to let you
feel the NEGLECT... LEAVE them... If they stop you, reconsider
about it. BUT if they don't stop you from leaving, then they're the
ones who'll lose a caring soul...............
إذا ترحلت عن قوم
وقد قدروا ألا تفارقهم فالراحلون هم
Those who truly love you will never
leave you alone just like that.. they'll always try to sort it out and
let the situations return to normal...
They'll fight for you.. they'll do the
impossible things just to show you how much you mean to them..
Just don't get fooled by the word (I
love you) said by anyone! wait for the actions.... and then judge...
5th|Nov|2007 1:56 PM
BEAUTIFUL...
"Dear, dear! How queer everything is
today! & yesterday things went on just as usual. I wonder if I've been
changed in the night? Let me think: was I the same when I got up this
morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But
if I'm not the same, the next question is, who in the world am I? Ah,
that's the great puzzle!"
~Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll
Alice in Wonderland
My note book.
@ Microbiology LAB
this is ZamZam Water.. it's free of
contamination :D
An autoclave.. to
increase the pressure and the boiling point..
Yukkk!!! the moment I saw it my heart sank to the
flooooor !!!!
:D everything is beautiful today even though I have a
test to study for :D
Oh by the way.. I got 85% in my Advanced Human
Nutrition test.. I was so satisfied about my grade, because I
really thought I'd fail the test!!! I got many mistakes in the
multiple choice questions. I hate multiple choices from the bottom of
my heart!
4th|Nov|2007 5:59 PM
I'd rather die... than to
present a presentation..
I am pretty much exhausted from head
to toe.
Today I had to present a presentation.
It felt like I had a pain in the neck... My presentation was supposed
to start at 1:00 PM. & I've been suffering since 6:00 AM! on my way to
uni, I started reading Alice in Wonderland to get rid of
the stress I had..
I felt like I was being throttled..
slowly slowly.. How I wished to die!!
As I mentioned before my presentation
was about Helicobater Pylori which is the main leading cause to ULCER.
& I actually felt I got ulcer because of
that presentation! It was a painful knot in the stomach... Oouch!
NORMALLY and usually, I don't use
powerpoint nor a projector. I also don't carry papers in my hands. I
just stand there while all people refuse taking their eyes off me!!! I
just bring my board markers and start drawing.. Thank God, most of my
courses center around PHYSIOLOGY and I feel free to draw diagrams on
board..
So,
it went like this...
The moment I stOod facing them all.. I
started laughing!! I had no choice! It was either to switch on the
laugh button or switch on the cry button. & while I was starting and
trying to have an impeccable narration about that DAMNED Helical
bacteria, I saw the students LAUGHING!!! Oh my God! they were
laughing!! & I started questioning:
"why on earth are you laughing?" I know
they weren't trying to be rude! it was me who looked so funny, for I
was clearing my throat and saying (ehim) every now and then!!!
& all of a sudden, my eyes settled on my
instructor who was opening his mouth so wide as if he was waiting for
me to throw a big orange in it... seriously, I pictured the gates which
led Aladdin's to have the enchanted wealth...
افتح يا سمسم أبوابك
نحن الأطفال
& suddenly I remembered the enchanted lamp & the famous
sentence of genie: "your wish is my command" Oh how I wished to have a
genie then! If I had a genie, I'd let him bury me under the grounds...
that would be my fortune..
Not only did my instructor provoked the childhood
memory of Aladdin & his genie, but he also let one of his fingers tick
his teeth.. & I could hear the tick tick tick [the sound of his
finger when it touched his teeth]...
Eventually and while I was lecturing I said:
"Excuse me sir.. stop opening your mouth & inserting
your finger inside it.. you're getting on my nerves"
& he was soooooooooo shocked!!!! his expressions
changed and he immediately apologized. in fact I was more shocked.. I
even started wondering how could I say such a thing, but I was out of
control! I even felt I had a serious fever.
I was extremely nerrrrrrrrvous...
It was the worst presentation
everrrrrrrrrrrrr..
I tried to leave no stone unturned and
my energy was completely depleted by the time I was done....
& now I feel extremely tired. I cannot
start studying for tomorrow's quiz right away... I am soo hungry too,
but I cannot fetch something to eat... waaaaaaa :'(
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3rd|Nov|2007 1:30 PM
I've just come back..
I was with my classmate discussing our
cholera project..
I loved the golden color of her bag.
Yum Yum my Toffee with ALMOND..
Uptown... I love this place
If one has the freedom to choose whether to be faithful
or infidel... THEN, I have the freedom to choose for my future... No
one can ever stop me from achieving my goals.. NOT even my family [& I
am sorry to say it].
I don't like to be a follower in every little thing I
do.. I prefer to be a leader who has her own decisions.. If I make a
mistake, then you are always welcome to advise me.. & I'll listen to
you, BUT no one can stop me from experiencing what I'd like to
experience.
I won't sit here and wait until I tear my hair out! I
already lost so much of my hair! I will thrive to make a difference! I
will and you will seeeeeeeeee...
I grew so taciturn about it, but everything has its
limit... and someday somewhere.. I will explode, but I believe it's
gunna be a positive explosion. SO don't worry :D I have this energy
which leads to CREATIVITY.
I am currently on my way to WONDERLAND.
It's a matter of choice and I am free to choose...
كيـــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــــفي
2nd|Nov|2007 9:20 PM
I imagine.......
I often imagine them
singing this song to me...
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
I don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure I'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I am not dwelling on it... I am just singing... :)
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SOME PEOPLE...
Some people travel just to have fun and forget
about their problems.. others travel away from their families for the
sake of achieving their dreams... To them it is not a matter of choice
as much as it is a matter of obligation & sometimes.. compulsion. &
there are those who travel away with "bad" friends seeking much more
than mere fun... I have to define "fun" according to them so that you
understand what I mean... It's this fun which is totally FILTHY
embodied in lusts... I have come across those people who fall under
those 3 categories...
&&&& I don't wanna throw my tantrums here nor do I
wish to let some ppl's bad behaviors rub off on me.
=) MY PLAN
Fortunately, I am working on
a long-term goal right now.... it
concerns TRAVELING, but I am not
gunna mention the reason behind it... :D The thought of it amuses me
and leaves a huge smile on my face.. :D :D :D Being JACK OF ALL THE
TRADES AND MASTER OF NONE can be very beneficial at times.
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What am I doing these days?
Yesterday I managed to visit my grandma ( I LOVE
HER SO MUCH.. ) not only because she's my grandma! I love her because
she's always smiley and she's tender-hearted and very delicate. :)
Thank God, I saw all my aunts and felt so relieved... I also saw
uncle Zee who's recently been in
COMO..
waaa how I wish to go back to ITALY! I WISH I WISH I WISH!!
This pic was taken by my mobile.. ;) Scarlett
made that yummmy love love strawberry dish
Ice blended cafe.. One of the classmates invited us
to have caramel late.. :D
Yum Yum. I love caramel..
Me in classs...
I forgot to mention that I made a very silly
mistake in microbiology test.. As I was philosophizing *AS USUAL* I
wrote in one of the paragraphs: [as one goes up on the mountains
pressure increases]!!! it was the most stupidddddd mistake I've ever
made!! Now I cannot forgive myselfffffffff...
Pressure decreases as we go away from gravity..
that's why when someone dives, he feels more pressure in his body..
For someone who's studying scientific subjects it's so shameful to
write such a thinggggggggg!!! My microbiology instructor did not say a
worddddddd indicating that I made that mistake, but he came to the
class & gave us a lecture about PRESSURE instead of giving us a
lecture about BACTERIA. My face was dropped by him, but in a very
beautiful way :p
NOW I realize that I need to focus more...
Otherwise I'll be a marginal person who knows nothingggggg..
>_< :S Currently I am working on
Helicobacter Pylori assignment..
This website is
very beneficial for those who are concerned about learning more about
Helico. The name is rhythmic and I am liking it! except that I am not
having so much fun, because I am locked inside my room while others
are enjoying their time SHOPPING... & tomorrow morning I will have to
meet up with my classmate at
HAAGEN DAZ to work on our
CHOLERA
project. Exams are on their way toO. I am not this kind of person
who likes to be so much stressed, because I cannot handle it well!!!!!
The only thought which is reliving me right now is
that it's my laaaaaaast yearrrrrrrrrrrrr... :D the last
yeppeeeeeeee... :)
EVERYDAY...
Everyday at 4:00 PM :D I have to have my RASPBERRY
TEA mixed with a yummy german honey...
It's very pure..
Nabhan...
Lately I've been viewing a lot of
his work!
It's amazing how I find circles in every drawing of his.. as well as
RED HEARTS.. :) Pretty inspiring mashAllah.... =)
