Everything bores me... I don't
attend my classes.. I'm always absent... I don't do my home
works.. I don't even study... And my marks are so bad... and the
only hope is too far to achieve... Hmmm...
and when
everything seems to be boring... she spends her time with her
lovely (Baqbaqeenoh) her lovely hen<= looks exactly like miracle
Don't ever
believe that miracle likes to play with her stupid hen... she's
feeling down.. that's why!! she doesn't know what 2 say or what
2 type here... Well...
I believe that
many ppl come into our life and fade into forgetfulness.. while
others remain as warm places in our hearts. I've learned how 2
forgive the bad times... I've learned how 2 live with love in my
heart...
Someone
wants me 2 forget those special moments... Well how? you
became part of me... how can I forget one of my parts? if you're
not fine... I'm not fine too... if you're sad.. I'm sad too...
If you're happy I'm happy too... you're living in my heart...
and you'll never go away from it... I never thought that
someone would choose my heart 2 live in... that someone knew
that it would be a peaceful place where the word (hate) wouldn't
be there... well what can I say? that someone was so happy...
coz everyone loved and respect that someone... and now that
someone is still LUCKY.. coz that someone knows that living in
miracle's heart will be 4ever...
I've
been shocked... ya3nee how could you??
If I were someone else, I'm sure I would hate you... I would
beat you... I would punish u... For as long as I live,
you'll always hold a place inside of me...
I'm living in
my dreams... and in my dreams you're a very different someone...
you're someone whom I create with my own inspiration and love...
that's why I can't hate you... hmm... Love what u want in life..
but plz love honestly... I'm happy 2 know that you're changing
in most of the things... I know you're gonna make it.. It may
take time & hard work... u may become frustrated coz no one
believes that u changed... and @ times you'll feel like giving
up... sometimes you may even wonder if it's really worth it...
But I have confidence in you and I know you'll make it if you
try...
I went with my cousin to (9a7ara
mall) to have our dinner... but she was so cruel.. she said that
she would like to have a coffee mixed with chocolate and
creams... and that cake tasted like a3333... wallah... wo I
didn't have my dinner.. owaa... owaa ehi ehi ehi
Awanneh it's my birthday... Owaa
owaa owaa
maba akbar.. maba
Dear someone:
forgetting you is something impossible...
Last night when I lied on my
bed... The silence was filling my room... and a box of patchi
chocolate was near me... and then... I heard
your voice again.. I've missed it every day since you've been So
far...When I glanced @ your fake vision.. I shivered... soon I was
moving to tears... I couldn't leave you alone...
I became crazy.. I started staring @ u... u were so silent... I
felt your tiredness... something was wrong with you... Suddenly... your
vision faded away... I closed my eyes.. & wished you were
there... I wished you would come back so I could hug you...
Imagining you near sometimes really helps...
I got out of my bed and I decided
to check my old-news section... I found my heart started to ache
when I reached these words:
I'll go to AD tomorrow morning....
I need to feel a new ray of hope...
I know
that I won't get you out of my mind and my heart... Deep inside
my heart there will always be a special corner saved only for
you... I don't deserve all these sorrows from you... Yeah I
can't express how do I feel... But it really hurts... I'm so
gentle.. You're so harsh... And I can't remove the worry from
my consciousness. I feel things deeply... OMG, I knew
everything... I'm not strong enough to face another challenge...
when I was with you I forgot about everything.. I was thinking
of you all the time... I was living in a different world... you
were the one.. And suddenly, everything turned out wrong...
Suddenly, I found ma self moaning alone... something had
interrupted me... You lied at me... you mistreated me... you
stabbed me in the back of ma heart... the wound is still
bleeding... And yet, there's no remorse in your eyes... How
could you?
I remember so well our first meeting. I
looked into your trusting eyes &
you captured my heart. Just tell me the truth... And I'll tread
on my heart... I'll hold my tears... I won't let them roll down
my cheeks...You forgot to take my breath... so what r u waiting
for? I wanna take a rest... and I'll forgive you... wallah I'll
do...
I felt that something would happen
in AD... sub7aan allah..
I still miss those I loved who are
no longer with me but I find I am grateful for having loved
them.
9.12.2002
5:23 PM
>To the one I love
most:
"Reading
what
u wrote
makes
me
live
again"
I've been too long lonely... Lonely without you... I needed a
little water of love... (real love)... what a jerk I had been! I
thought it was real... U grabbed my heart and stabbed it in the
back of it... and it's still bleeding... L-O-V-I-N-G you was a
great crime... so u gratified me by deceiving me...
"God
forgives....
y cant
u ....
?" My heart forgave you
before asking me to...(as usual) "I
dunno
what
to do...
but
ppl
do
mistakes
ok..."
ppl make mistakes, I agree... but your mistakes weren't easy 2
bear... u hurt me pretty badly... I wasn't your enemy... I gave
u something valuable... U didn't pay attention 2 what I gave...
I was so dejected and shocked... u don't deserve my love...
how did u talk 2 me last time? do u remember? I couldn't sleep @
all... I became sick... Did u ask about me?? did u care?? There
were times when I prayed for u.. there were times when I cried
for you...there were times when I felt jealous over u... there
were times when I fought for u.. There were times when I forgot
the world and my friends just to be with you... There were
no times when I deceived u and Lied
to u... you'll need me someday.. and you won't find me near...
I'll be
GONE..
I made a
terrible mistake when I trusted u.. I can't believe u
anymore....
you've done more harm to me than good...
How did u feel
when u lost your friend? when he died... how did u feel?? Ok.. I
felt the same when u left me... I felt the same... it was as if
part of me were dead inside too. but I didn't play with others
feelings... I didn't deceive others... I didn't wrong anyone...
I didn't become disobedient gurl... I didn't accompany bad
friends... I was so patient with u...and I was loyal too..
u were so cruel... so selfish... I didn't learn how 2 become a
devil... mashallah you're ingenious in your devilishness without
learning it somewhere...
Sadly, U lost me..
Tell
me why should I stay with u When you don't seem to care? u don't
seem 2 need me... I wish you'd be fine and faithful
someday...
Why do ppl I
care about always have 2 leave?? I remember those times
when they were with me... I shed a single tear... I was simply
happy 2 have them around. I really feel bad that my heart feels
pain.
6.12.2002
11:08 PM
3eedkom
mbaarak
Pals..
what do you think of me?
>message to someone
was precious:
lies... it was all lies, wasn't
it? how could u have deceived me so long? u left me a body with
no soul...eyes
without interpretation, tongue with no words...
I want to
forget you.. I wanna
hate you..
I want to get past this moment, I want to escape to where I can
live in peace without you..
I need to get past the moment, to escape your smile, your
beauty, your...you. Just another beauty, loved by a beast, it
seems.
I'll never stop loving you
but
why? tell me why? I did every thing for you.. I would have given
u the world... I would have given u my soul... U never cared to
see how I was doing... u never asked about me.. u never sent me
Hi's... U deceived me... it made me
loose some of my confidence & self-esteem. it made my soul cry..
U know what!
remembering that day in AD really hurts... dreaming of you makes
tears roll down my cheeks without stopping... I can't take any
more...
I still care for you, even though.. you've done more harm to me
than good...
I've
been shocked... ya3nee how could you??
maba akbar.. maba 
I became crazy.. I started staring @ u... u were so silent... I
felt your tiredness... something was wrong with you... Suddenly... your
vision faded away... I closed my eyes.. & wished you were
there... I wished you would come back so I could hug you...
Imagining you near sometimes really helps... 
I know
that I won't get you out of my mind and my heart... Deep inside
my heart there will always be a special corner saved only for
you... I don't deserve all these sorrows from you... Yeah I
can't express how do I feel... But it really hurts... I'm so
gentle.. You're so harsh... And I can't remove the worry from
my consciousness. I feel things deeply... OMG, I knew
everything... I'm not strong enough to face another challenge...
when I was with you I forgot about everything.. I was thinking
of you all the time... I was living in a different world... you
were the one.. And suddenly, everything turned out wrong...
Suddenly, I found ma self moaning alone... something had
interrupted me... You lied at me... you mistreated me... you
stabbed me in the back of ma heart... the wound is still
bleeding... And yet, there's no remorse in your eyes... How
could you? 
I remember so well our first meeting. I
looked into your trusting eyes &
you captured my heart. Just tell me the truth... And I'll tread
on my heart... I'll hold my tears... I won't let them roll down
my cheeks...You forgot to take my breath... so what r u waiting
for? I wanna take a rest... and I'll forgive you... wallah I'll
do...
Sadly, U lost me..
