Yesterday I had my breakfast twice! The first time was at home.. and the second was at Shakespeare with my Sagi friend Amoony. Everytime I go to a calm place with someone I adore, something "bad" happens at home or anywhere else.. and then, I receive all the negative emotions that end me up in a complete bad bad as in bad MOOD.
Yesterday was the first time that I dressed in red without feeling the passion of RED. It was awful! Don't ever wear red when you're not in the mood of wanting red... Red needs L.O.V.E first in order to make you look attractive, but if you're not in the mood for it, it will deceive you and make all the burning rage which is hidden in you CLEAR to everyone.
I knew that I was so upset! Thus, I wore my sunglasses in order to hide the eyes which were inflamed with unshed tears....
Some people are just "FAKE". They live in total contradiction! They're simply not FAIR... & we're not stupid to know what is happening around... & being patient with them or trying to endure them does not mean that we're satisfied... & someday, they will recognize that they sowed seeds which could never bear fruit. They never encouraged us to be ambitious! on the contrary, they kill the hope before it has even started to gleam in our fragile hearts...
They will lose a lot of course... Because they're the reason WHY we started to HATE those who are supposed to be most loved by us. I never ever thought that I'd feel HATRED this way......
Last but not least: Thanks Amoony =) I was feeling relaxed and happy to see you =) I love you my dear friend.
Dear Scarlett, Sorry for not answering the phone.. I was sleeping ZzzZzZzzZzz. Next time if I don't answer the phone, send me a message please.
Dear Dxb Girl, thanks for always letting me feel that I am with you even when I am not =) with your hundreds messages, I actually live the events that you go through...................
6th|February|2007 10:00 AM
NICE pix I got while sitting in front of t.v I wish I were really there in the midst of the special event though.
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Things I've been doing lately........ 1000 puzzles
An excellent book to read
It looks so cute right? THANKS to Aunt L
Mobile shots:
CHIPS From Spinneys
Tofi nut latte is sooo YUMMY
Good Lock moschino
It is indeed a long update =) and I feel I wanna type a lot.
Hmph, I am enjoying my holiday even though I miss one of my aunts so so much and cannot wait until I see her again... I spend my days reading, playing with my lil sisters, talking with my online friends, visiting my relatives, and of course SHOPPING. I still need to shop more :p I also have to HANG OUT with my friends... This is a must, because I rarely see them at the beginning of each semester... They all tend to be very busy.
Today, I spent some time with my aunt at Star Bucks... I was enjoying my time and enjoying the taste of TOFI NUT LATTE.. *it rocks you should taste it*.. I was in a taciturn mood though... I received a message and it was like an ultimatum for another "loss"... My heart thumped with fears..... Nothing serious happened and I was pretending to be so cool and calm, but my heart thumped with fears... and I knew I would end up bursting into tears... and as I was expecting, IT WAS INDEED ANOTHER LOSS... at least in my own history... Was it my fault? SORT OF...
anyway,
A couple of days ago, I was thinking of how can it be that some people claim they truly care for us... and when we talk about a serious thing that we consider so "important" they listen silently, patiently, & happily...
BUT,
when we ask them about the conversation that was being said during the next day, they do not REMEMBER well!
I often feel so furious, thinking that those people who claim they love me don't even listen when I talk... & Perhaps they're just pretending that they care or maybe they compliment me!! Because I thought... those who love and care for me SHOULD listen to me very well and memorize what I say andddd try to understand my mood.
OF COURSE I was so stupid to think this way... & I learned a new lesson in my life. =) Thanks to "Shantaram"...
I came across these lines and I felt that they're so so true.
"It's a fact of being in LOVE that we often pay no attention whatsoover to the substance of what a lover says, while being intoxicated to ecstasy by the way it's said"
So this explains it all.. sometimes they look at us with so much concern... in fact they're just being intoxicated by how we say and utter the "words" without recognizing the meanings lol. SO WHAT DO YOU THINK?
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Last but not least, THANKS a whole bunch for AD_QUEEN for tagging me.. There were no questions added.. I just have to say things about myself!
Hmmmm... I guess I've added a lot of extra stuff about me in this section and in this THREAD. I don't know what to say more about myself :P I will try though.
1) First of all... I became huggable... Whenever I greet someone or see a precious person, I MUST HUG! At home my words are naturally full of LOVE AND PASSION. :P
2) I do have more three semesters to be done with. And I am not gunna attend the GRADUATION ceremony. OH yeah, after I graduate Inshallah, I will either enter the work field ORRRR think of taking master courses. My master will be on either CHILD PSYCHOLOGY or LITERATURE.. I might think of Islamic Studies as well.
3) I realized that my friends are either Sagittarius or Pisces... I stick to them more ya3ne. I do have Leo <= and they're not so easy to please, Aries.. and most of the other Zodiacs.. EXCEPT scorpions!! I hardly get along with scorpions :P They get on my nerves but I do love them madly... However, I do not share secrets with them. For sure, my theories change rapidly depending on the personalities of people. For example, Scarlett is a scorpio, but I am finding myself so close to her these days that I can open my heart easily to share secrets with.
4) I used to like accessories much more than GOLD. Now, I hardly buy accessories.
5) I no longer hate the color PURPLE. In fact I am falling in love with it. it used to annoy my eyes. Now, whenever my eyes take a glimpse of Purple, I become so inspired to write long LOVE LETTERS for no one but me.
6) I like the green tea TAZO. it's a blend of peppermint leaves, spearmint leaves and tarragon. Sometimes I go to Star Bucks just to buy this tea.
7) I do LOVE love as in LOVE the play {Madrasat Al MOsha'3been}.. I can watch it over and over again... it makes me laugh out loud..
8) University has never been my first priority and I might be absent during the first days of the new coming semester.
9) I always sing this song especially before going to bed: "I can't sleep.. Everything I ever knew.. is a lie without you... I can't breathe.. When my heart is broke in two.. There's no beat without you... You're not gone, but you're not here... Is that the way it seems tonight?? If we could try to end these wars.. I know that we can make it right.... coz baby.. I don't wanna fight no more.. I forgot what were fighting for.. & this loneliness that's in my heart won't let me be apart from you..."
10) I believe life is so hard. YET, it has beautiful lessons for us to learn =) I am kissing the pain I have right now, coz it opened my eyes on many things I never took attention of.
