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30 | 3 | 2002 "Smell the midnight oil"... I'm so tired... I couldn't sleep well yesterday! Everything turns out wrong... Smiles are hard to come by.. My loved ones are far away... I don't know what to say, but if there's a room for a foot by you, and you need it, I want my foot there. I took some "crazy" pics.. actually, they cheered me up :) I wish they smile and laugh as much as they can, in order to help bring joy back into this world.
Crazy Girls..
I wish I can bring the age back from the beginning. "God bless them"
29 | 3 | 2002 I
went to my Uncle's house yesterday. I really had fun there.. I laughed a
lot.. You know me! " loves to laugh until her stomach hurts"
But, My cousin asked me whether to join the art or science section... I
looked over at him once and made a terrible face
I made a very simple graphic using Bnafsaj's brushes.. thanks to her :)
27 | 3 | 2002 Yeah yeah! well, I'm so happy... I'm absent! wow... Unknown and Shamma are struggling now at their jail... while I'm spending my time by eating my yummy favorite ice-cream and watching some of my favorite films... But But But, I don't know what's the matter with me? still deep inside my heart there's something so obscure, something "harsh"... The world closes in and lies so heavily upon me.. The ones with whom I share my life seem like strangers & love seems to only bring pain. I must stand alone. Loneliness is my companion & all about me seem to be gone. but I pause & listen, for the sound of loneliness is silence, and in silence I hear best. Listen well, and your moments of silence will always be broken by the gentle words of encouragement spoken by those of us who love you. Those who love me... love is the finest of all gifts and received only to be given. I embrace those who truly love me; for they are few in a lifetime. I'll talk about something else.. I know.. I'm always complaining... My sorrows<== sometimes writing about them helps! Dubai's girl made a new indescribable layout! Bnafsaj made a new one too! Did I mention that I'm anarchist these days... unfortunately I am!
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| 3 | 2002 (Moaning)! A sad house. A gloomy house.. A still and a silent house. Not the silence of hope, but the silence of a memory. Not the silence of death but the silence of absence. I miss them more than anyone could possibly imagine. There were tears in everyone's own eyes. Maybe we should not despair when the news seems always bad.. Its our inevitable destiny... Difficulties arise in the lives of us all. It takes a strong person to deal with tough times and difficult choices.. The old will change & become the new... in the passage of time that comes to us all *optimizing*... The past we wish to leave behind is left behind, while that which we choose to take with us on our journey is gently folded and placed in our spiritual suitcase and taken along as precious MEMORIES.. A message to my family... (uncle, aunts, mom and dad... etc) There is an irreplaceable feeling that I wouldn't give up for the world.. a sense of belonging, of being able to run to the outstretched hands of those I love... at any time, and comfort me when things go wrong, or laugh with me when things make me happy. Caring and sharing life's ups and downs, And mostly LOVING.. As I so dearly love them. I'm afraid of being alone... :( 21 | 3 | 2002 I'm very tired... I didn't finish my Biology presentation yet... Beside that.. We'll have three exams on Sat... (English, Physics & math)... But I don't care.. I don't wanna study maybe I'll think about it later... I wanna finish reading these Books.. But I find myself very busy...
I'm busy with my writings... I'm carrying my pad around with me and keeping a pencil tucked behind my ear all the time. I love to write & read.
Shamma came over yesterday... She ate 5 Hamburgers... And she didn't eat one's fill... It was hard to keep from laughing at her...
At the end of my adventures... I wanna thank e3ashig for his comment about my site...
18 | 3 | 2002 There are treasures in one's life that cannot be seen, cannot be touched, are impossible to measure or estimate their value... They cannot be bought, yet are given for free. These precious gifts have been given to me and have made a difference in my life.. My parents... they are so loving, so giving, so caring so special.. I thank God that I was born to them.. My Friends... Shamma, unknown and.. and Someone who always tells me the truth about myself.. Someone who knows what I'm doing through at all times... someone who understand whatever I do.. Someone who tries to cheer me up when things don't go well... :( Its "Dubais Gurl" For sure! She knows me like no other person ever will.. 15 | 3 | 2002 Hii everybody!! Finally I did some new graphics... Check this.. I know you'll like it.. I need to read your comments about it...
14 | 3 | 2002 Today How precious it is, and how full of possibilities. How sad it would be to waste it worrying about the future, & how wrong it would be to spend it dwelling on problems from the past. I tried very hard to get rid of any "if only's" and get on with whatever I need to do to make today my moment in time but I failed... Yesterday.. I went to my Grandma's house... I had fun there.. I enjoyed talking with my grandmother and my aunts.. And when we were all sitting to have our supper... I remembered someone... Someone was missing.. Tears filled my eyes and my heart was thumping so loud... I thought it might explode and that would be the end of me... Anyway tears won't bring him back... I can't endure this sad truth.. I wanna leave this world.. Well... I'll change the topic.... check "el shikh wel hindi" article written by adnan al ansari... hey People... Have some mercy on others... (B) and Dubai's Girl asked me to add "my own words" section... And I did... (B) I hope that You're having fun in the global village...
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11 | 3 | 2002 My uncle came over last night! yaaay! he fixed the problem in my digital camera... so I decided to add these pics in my site... enjoy your self...
hiii...
I'm the philosopher "miss mouse" you know... no need to
embarrass me more.. mice ate my teeth & that's all.. well I wanna tell u that as children, we are supposed to make many mistakes to
learn our lessons, but often we get the message that if we make mistakes
something is wrong with us... I'll give an example: when I annoy Miracle
girl and she punishes me I realize that she won't give me gifts and
sweets, pastries, chocolates ETC.. she won't let me play with her organ
:(... etc! As a result, we do not get the positive message that it is
okay to make mistakes, we are well on the way to feeling that we have to
be perfect... that's all for today *hoooh*... BYe
tell me your opinion about my wallpapers... coz if they look dull.. I won't add more.. :( I'm busy these days.. very busy... don't miss me ;) coz I won't update my site for three days or maybe more! A message to my closest friend Dubai's girl, Hey Dubai's Girl thanks for your words... I never thought I'd feel this way, & as far as I'm concerned, I'm glad I got the chance to say that i do believe I love you. & If I should ever go away, well then close your eyes and try to feel the way we do today. And if u can remember, keep smiling, keep shining... knowing u can always count on me, for sure, that's what friends are for.. for good times and bad times.. God knows that the words are coming from my heart... Maybe someday you'll open your eyes and you won't see me in this life... but best believe that you'll be in my heart & soul, the inspiration of many of many dreams, the very best friend a person could ever have.. The many dreams & moments we have spent together will never be forgotten, times of P-A-I-N as well as happy times. We shared laughter and love, & u let me give you a few of my own tears. Each new moment with you seems more precious than the one before.. You know me like no other person ever will. You know the story of my life, for it is written on many of the same pages as yours. You know my faults and weaknesses, my insecurities and my doubts, and still u like me anyway. I can't tell u how much it means to have u in my life. All i can say is that i can't imagine being here without u. 10
| 3 | 2002 One of the best things about life is friends. You find them wherever you go. They are the stars in your happy memories. In your sad memories, they are the shoulders you leaned on and the hearts that listened. They just care. Dubai's Girl when we can't be together, I really miss her. I have other friends whom I talk to.. but it's not the same... She has such a deep understanding of who I am. I hardly have to speak any words & she knows just what I'm saying! I really miss her & I want to be sure that she knows that no matter where I go, whom I meet... Or what I do... I'll never find as deep a friendship with anyone as I have with her... I'm not afraid to let her see me cry, and she's the one person I want to be with when I want to feel C-R-A-Z-Y! There are so many things about us that give me reasons to feel glad. We're good at making each other laugh... as well as cry... We see so many things in the same ways.. She's the only one who ever took the time and cared enough to know what was going on inside of me! One of the most special places in my heart will always be saved for her.. I think that our hearts know & share cherished feelings even if they are never spoken. Actually, I heard something I didn't want to hear... For a while, I remembered it may not be 100% true. But the one who told me was her.. Dubai's Girl So it was 100% true... I can't remove the worry from my consciousness. I can't remove the dread of having to face another challenge... I want some people to know that I'm thinking of them especially during this time, I also want them to know that I'm praying for them & sending them good thoughts. I know that they are strong.. and soon they'll be on the other side & they'll be fine... I know they're doing all that they know to do.. But they're wrong :( I just wanted them to know that I care about them... the Sad truth is... They don't even listen to me... I dream about them during the daybreak time... *before waking to pray*... Well, I won't complete my sentences... I know that no one does care... Maybe Dubai's Girl is reading now... But she can't help me... Life has got me down... I can't study, I can't sleep well, I can't stop thinking, I can't make graphics, I can't do anything except eating... I can't stop eating! *fat Girl* ... Well everything changes, so it's just a matter of time until this trail will be over... Thanks Amoony for the wonderful Card :( of course I do!
7 | 3 | 2002 It's hard to have hard times come to those who deserve only smiles. It doesn't seem fair.. I can't taste the sweetness of life.. My smile might be gone for a little while.... But, I wish it will reappear in the mirror tomorrow... *sadness* <== I wish I could ignore this bad feeling.... I wish I could let it arrives only as a visitor & not as a permanent guest... each new day is a blank page in the diary of my life... the pen is in my hand, but the lines will not all be written the way I choose... I wish people could understand... actually... no one can understand moi except Dubai's Girl... God bless her... Hey girl, the more I thought about "going to ...." the more I knew I was right... By being in this moment & living a day at a time I hope my grandfather can hear me... I miss him a lot... miss telling him my adventures @ school & with my teachers... life has got me down... I can't take no more... "allah yer7amah"...
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I was really confused! Daaamn, I hate to think about it... Never
mind... I'll decide later... Here's my lil bro E7im E7im " my teddy
bear".
