25 | 4 | 2002

Hi, Bonjour, Hola, Guten Tag, Salam...  I can't express my feelings.. Yaaaay... I saw Dubai's girl today! I invited her to my favorite Coffee SHOP.. And I really had fun with her... We chatted.. We gabbed... We LAUGHED... We were so crazy... She is such a precious friend to me. without her, I'm not really sure what would I do, I only know that I reached out to the right person... When I reached out to her... God bless her... 

24 | 4 | 2002

When I came back from school today... I entered my room and locked the door.... Tears  streamed fast down my poor face.... Why do people treat me like this  cruel way? Everyone seems to be going away from me... (but I'm still praying for them).... I didn't sleep yesterday..... While they were enjoying their time by LYING and deceiving others.... stabbing me in the back too... I was trembling and crying so loud... And then... I listened to (6aweel el shawq)....... I felt much better....

For some time after my Grandfather's death, I was very unhappy. I missed the father to whom I had given so much loving, & with whom I had spent so many hours of everyday....

I wish that I could stop wasting my time in crying.. I'm not the girl whom I used to be... My smile faded away............................................... Bye bye all.. 

23 | 4 | 2002

WAAAAAAA! (as usual)! I didn't finish my Maths in school. So now I have to do it for homework

Beside, You know our MMmonnsssssster.. Oops I meant our merciful teachers very well! My Geography teacher want me to present a presentation about BABA ZAYED for her... That's not fair.. YEAH.. Not fair! 

Mmmm.. You know that I do love Biology, right? So I took some pics from our lab!

Yaay! lizards!!

scorpions and spiders

sponges and shells

Well... of course I took more pics... But there's no more space in here! LOOL... It was a swell idea from Amoony to take some pics at school... Thanks my dear! Hey Dubai's Girl.. No calls?  I start looking for the next time we'll see each other... Sometimes I think about funny things we've done together, and even if its late at night, I want to call you so we can laugh about it all over again... How many times should I say this? By the way, I liked your new dazzling wallpapers very much.. (that's my friend)..

I guess I better go and complete the presentation!! BYE BYE... Oh God, I'm so tired.... 

19 | 4 | 2002

God bless them...

17 | 4 | 2002

Dear Unknown, no matter what, we'll always be friends... We've been through a lot together, you and I. And beyond the happiness and the tears that have been shared comes something else... It's a connection that will always be there between us. No matter where we go or how much time passes, you and I will always, in a very special way, remain together in spirit. And that knowledge is cherished by me as the one thing that Must never change. In a world of constant transition, I pray that what we feel towards one another will always stay the same.

Taste it! Yummy!

15 | 4 | 2002

Sorry for showing up again.. "the girl is very busy with her studies"! but she wants you to see this... 

Today I was so miserable... Hopeless.. And dreamless... I remembered someone so bad... Then I looked deeply into his eyes... "there were tears and an obscure shadow"! I could barely breathe... and tears filled my eyes... I was imagining you... But you're not here.... I can't bear this sad truth... I can't I can't I can't! Everything has changed when Shamma called...

++  "Special" is a word that is used to describe something one-of-a-kind like a hug or a sunset or a person who spreads love with a smile or kind gesture.  It describes people who act from the hearts of others. it applies to something that is admired and precious and which can never be replaced. No doubt, "Special" is the word that best describes Shamma<== My friend ;) 

Yeah yeah! we went to Baskin...

Yum Yum Yummy!

4 | 4 | 2002

unfortunately, I won't be able to update my site in this month... I have some extra jobs to do! I guess I'm ok today.. Yesterday I went to ...... "somewhere"

Red in Red...

as soon as we got home.. I went to my room and started to cry.. .. so loud and hard..., until my throat hurt... I stood in front of my mirror.. I was a disaster! i was as ugly as anything I'd never seen. "Damn you"! I shouted at my reflection... I'm crazy, I thought... Mummy called "lunch Miracle" and for some dumb reasons that made me laugh because all of a sudden I was hungry. no matter how bad things are people still get hungry. That's a fact. I tried to eat my sandwich as if nothing was wrong... Now... Dubai's Girl.. don't try 2 know everything... I mean the whole story.. Coz I won't mention anything..

2 | 4 | 2002 (Message to Unknown)

I'd like to tell you how much I love you, & I hope you know that I do... While you're finding yourself in the world, there are many rewards in life. Happiness awaits you, & there are joys to give and to receive. Always listen to your own heart while reaching for nothing but the best. Give to life, & life will give to you... & as you live always remember that you are loved. If ever you need to talk, to share a laugh, a dream, a smile; to be comforted or reassured, to be understood.. Remember, my shoulder is there for your head, your secrets are safe and my door is always open. Don't forget we're absent (lucky us)! Amoony envies us ;)

1 | 4 | 2002 "Absent Again"

I feel that my life is worthless.. Even when I was really young I used to get very depressed. I remember lying in bed when I was 6 or 7, not wanting to get up to go to school because I didn't see the point in it at all. I used to tell my mum when I was feeling low... The pain is worse when I'm on my own. & I think about them all the time.. How can I come to terms with the pain of losing a loved one? 

Thanks to amwaj... For the lovely comment.. My face was turning red. ;)