20th|May|2006 1:40 AM Staying up late...

This is how I feel at this very moment...

It hurts when the heart squeezes the pain to make it worse... It's such a dreadful wash of feelings when you need to be surrounded by the people who passed away once again, then you realize that they're actually gone... Sometimes you want to control the pain by making your mind busy with something else such as getting involved with friends or SHOPPING... Sometimes you force yourself to sleep just to forget all about it. Some people eat more than usual when they feel anxious or sad. Some, on the other hand lose their appetite to eat....

We may feel distracted for a while.. especially if the loss or the pain is heavy on us to carry...
Pain makes us weak that we fall into deep halls without being able to get out easily.

Some people...

Some people get led astray by doing useless things such as dating which (most of the time) leads to hopeless results ... Does dating bring comfort to the heart, mind and soul? for how long? SOME people lose faith... Others think that this is the only life they're living.. So, they start TRYING every single thing that crossed their minds such as trying drugs, drinking excessive alcoholic drinks, being gays, committing crimes.. etc

Our lives and their lives..

I always compare our lives to their lives... They say we're oppressed, because we wear veils... we're stupid because we're not that open.. They sympathize for us because they think we're forlorn... they consider happiness (TOTAL FREEDOM)... It's true that it's been given to mankind the (FREEWILL) and we can do whatever we wanna do, but there's always a reward.. and there's always a punishment for whatever we do... Plus, there's always rules to follow.....  For example, If a country doesn't have rules, anarchy will be spread.. Same goes to the company which doesn't put rules and policies...

The ones who believe in Christianity as such

Did they ever skim through the pages of the Qur'an.. I am wondering.. have they ever looked at the index of the Qur'an and the titles of each VERSE? I am not asking them to read it all.......... ONLY focus on the titles if you would like to know the difference of this religion and any other religion....... A hint: {THERE ARE LONG VERSES praising Virgin Mary and her son Jesus..} just skim through the pages and COMPARE the difference......

The ones who believe in secularism

Those westerners *the ones who believes in secularism* don't understand that we feel happy when we follow the rules that God asked us to follow, for He's the perfection. They don't understand that we're only poor humans  (who no matter how smart we are), we won't be able to KNOW EVERY THING and we won't be able to have a complete happiness... They don't realize that there's always something right and something wrong... Is it the right thing to do when we don't follow anything and we just continue our routine without even asking our selves  ((WHERE WILL WE BE AFTER WE DIE?)) is it logical that all those people despite their different rules that they follow will be in heaven *this is if you believe in heaven and hell*? can your mind believes that allllll the companies and trade of the whole world will gain profit and win and there will be no loss at all????!!!!! Does the one who studies hard for the test like the one who doesn't care at all about his subjects and grades?

To cut the long story short

what I am trying to say that no matter how we feel down and no matter how we try to find the real happiness, we won't be able to be relaxed unless we be closer to God... Despite all religions, God is one and He's there if someone needs him desperately, but the smart person is the one who knows how to be happy in this life and in the other by following the right path... and NOT every path leads to the way of survival.....

What I'd like to share... (GOOD for those who are in pain) copy and paste it in microsoft word.. then print it out..

"Pain is not always a negative force and it is not something that you should always hate. At times a person benefits when he feels pain. You might remember, that at times when you felt a lot of pain, you sincerely supplicated and remembered Allah. When he's studying, the student often feels the pangs of heavy burden, sometimes perhaps the burden of monotony, yet he eventually leaves the stage of life as a scholar. He felt burdened with pain at the beginning, but he shined at the end. The aches and pangs of passion, poverty and the scorn of others, the frustration and anger at injustices - these all cause the poet to write flowing and captivating verses. This is because he himself feels pain in his heart, his nerves, and in his blood, and as a result, he's able to infuse the same emotions into the hearts of others. How many painful experiences does the writer undergo, experiences that inspire brilliant works, works that posterity continues to enjoy and learn from.

The student who lives the life of comfort and repose and who is not stung by hardships, or who has never been befallen by calamity will be an unproductive, lazy, and lethargic person.

Indeed, the poet who knows no pain and who has never tasted bitter disappointment will invariably produce heaps upon heaps of cheap words - absolute humdrum. This is because his words pour forth from his tongue and not from his feelings or emotion, and though he may comprehend what he was written, his heart and body have not lived the experience.

More worthy and relevant to the aforementioned examples are the lives of the early believers, who lived during the period of revelation and who took part in the most important religious revolution that mankind has seen. Indeed, they had greater faith, nobler hearts, more truthful tongues, and deeper knowledge: they had all of these because they lived through the pain and suffering that are necessarily concomitant to great abuse, of banishment from home and country; of abandonment of all pleasures, of the pains of wounds, and of death and torture. They were in truth chosen ones, the elite of mankind. They were models of purity, nobleness, and sacrifice.

{That is because they suffer neither thirst nor fatigue, nor hunger in the cause of Allah, nor they take any step to raise the anger of disbelievers nor inflict any injury upon an enemy, but is written to their credit as a deed of righteousness. Surely, Allah wastes not the reward of the doers of good.} (Qur'an 9:120)

In the history of the world there are those that have produced their greatest works because of the pain or the suffering they experienced. Al-Mutanabi, when afflicted with a severe fever, wrote some of his best poetry. An-Naabigah was threatened with death by An-Nu'maan ibn Mundhir, contributed the classic poem with the opening couplet:

"Verily, you are the sun, while other kings are the stars: when the sun rises, no star in the sky is visible."

كأنك شمس والنجوم كواكب. إذا ظهرت لم يبد منهن كوكب

There are many such examples who prospered and became legend because of the sufferings they experienced.

Therefore, do not become excessively anxious when you think of pain, and do not fear suffering. It might well be that through pain and suffering you become stronger. And furthermore, for you to live with a burning and passionate heart that has been stung is purer and nobler than to live the dispassionate existence of a cold heart and a short-sighted outlook.

If you wish to affect and influence others, whether it be your speech or with your poetry, or even with your actions, you must first feel the passion inside of you. You must be moved yourself by the meanings of what you are trying to convey. Then you will come to realize that you have an influence upon others."

'Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarnee