1st|June|2006 1:43 PM MOVING MY FILES..

As usual, I can't study if my room is full of papers and files. Thus, I decided to move all my files and the old books to another room so I can focus on my studies. My finals will start THIS SATURDAY.. and I didn't finish a whole project yet. I've just written an introduction. Mmm, you know the day is consisted of 24 hours.. 24 hours are enough to study 8 chapters, but... I must force my body to accept caffeine, otherwise, I'll grow drowsy as soon as I start reading...

OLD FILES AND BOOKS

the disturbance of shadow and light..

Same here..

Ketone.. tetone jetone teettttOn. doesn't it sound like music? I call it the music of chemistry.

This is an amazing BOOK. DON'T MISS IT. It's worth it

"What do we live for. If it is not to make life less difficult for each other?" George Eliot Exactly!!! why do we live if we don't help each other and if we grow more selfish as the days pass? I think the selfish ones hurt no one but themselves.

As Sean Covey always reminds "Think of Win-Win instead of Win-Lose, Lose-Win, or Lose Lose.."

Win-Win when you want to succeed and you want the same for others. By this method, you'll really succeed. If you know that there's a girl who really hates you even if you know that you've done nothing serious, help her when she's desperately in need... Help her and don't wait for a thing in return.... for instance, if you studied well for the test, and she had problems in understanding few things, try to teach her.. Eventually, the hatred she feels for you will disappear.. and you'll both do well in the test.. so you'll both succeed.

Win-Lose. When you want to succeed alone.. and you don't want the same for others.

Lose-Win, here when you act so naive that you allow yourself to lose just because you want to please others.

LOSE-LOSE, when you don't care if you're gonna lose and you don't care if your failure will bring sadness for others. For example, the student who doesn't study hurts his parents as well. I remember a history of someone who LOST many things, because he applied LOSE-LOSE as his main method for life....... Actually he lost many things, including {feelings}... Until now, I see him a FAKE spirit who is so weak........ This person doesn't know the beauty of achieving GOALS or the meaning of AMBITION.. All what he knows is acting exactly like his friends..... AND whenever you ask him "How are you?", he will reply: "Alive"!  or "mmmmm Ok" :P and whenever you want to help, he'll prefer remaining as he is.. He won't even accept the guidance which helps him get out of the maze.. He always reminds me of the character of that donkey from winnie the pooh classics. :p

I don't know how he loves such a boring routine! Or how he preferred fakeness on TRUTHFULNESS until he became SO FAKE.

Anyway,

I sent an email to my teacher.. I talked about ambitions and inspiration... AND how I lost them once, and how I felt almost dead after that.. I didn't expect that my words would bring her tears.... She actually cried! I didn't expect that this teacher among all others has such a sensitive spirit.... :) sub7an Allah

I really don't regret knowing some depressed people who really brought me depression and pain... and I don't regret knowing some deceivers and hypocrites.. I don't regret knowing strict teachers who were really unjust.. I don't regret.... Indeed, I've learnt from all of them....

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Final message to Shamma, dear.. I can't attend the wedding because of the reasons I've mentioned. Sorry I feel so sad....