14th|June|2009 5:30 PM 

THANKS FOR THOSE WHO KEPT ON ASKING ABOUT ME.. I AM FINE AND HAPPY even if I am annoyed  a little bit.. Al Hamdulillah... :) How can I be sad when I am a muslim?! Allah showed me the YAQEEN al hamdulillah and it is more than enough for me to live happily ever after...

A whole than a whole month! No... more than a month! Now wait a min, lol I did not get married ok! and who said that if a girl gets married, she must stop blogging?! I am revealing this, because I received emails asking about my honey moon and all! O_o I was like what!  If I ever stop blogging that would be because I'd no longer want to express my feelings via blogging...

((((For your information, my mum has a blog))))

I never ever left my blog for more than a week! I can't believe that I did not update for a whole month! And it did not feel like a month. it felt like 6 months. I did not relax for even 1 minute during that month. I did not pause for a while to forget about everything that was stressful (and is still stressful)... & believe it or not signs of Alzheimer's occurred. I don't seem to remember where I kept my precious pens and some valuable cds... I totally forgot. it could be due to high levels of stress, but even when I am not working and feeling relieved, I don't remember anything.

I had problems (many problems) at home. I had problems at work... Eventually, I felt completely detached and careless...

WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD MY FRIEND MOON

Will tell you some of things which you do not know about. Things which made me feel a little bit happy at least.

1) * I was hoping that my Blood Group would be O, because I am so fond of circles and anything that is round-shaped, and thankfully, the blood group test result proved that I was an O+. In other words, Ahim, I am a Universal Donor :D

My heart-shaped calculator...

2) *I bought new Tweety Bags from braccialini, but I guess I am not gonna carry them again... not in the place where I work... I will take the pencil case only (if I find it too hard to resist).. They're very stupid people who keep on asking questions such as: "Are You Carrying TWEETY Bags because you love being called "a baby"? STUPID... I am asked such questions almost every day!!! They do not seem to shut up especially ONE PERSON whom I will throttle one day...

And one more thing,

Tweety does not deserve to be sexposed in such a place! he's part of a very high class family...

3) * I bought DS just to play Brain Games... I am only 22.. and the age of my brain is 80!!!! how lucky I am! good for me..

HOW FRUSTRATING! Anyway, I am trying to sharpen my brain...

Out of frustration, I eat JUNK, but I do not advise you to be like me.. this is a sign of weakness and defeat.

LoVe.. LOve, & more LOVE.

I am still the same person.. no matter how hard I try to change... I cannot be adamant when I am too soft... I cannot pretend I am too serious when I am deep inside I am flexible, happy, and excited... It is still me who loves tweety, toys, books, islamic lectures, and westlife songs... it is still me who loves to laugh... it is still me who thinks of traveling away whenever something goes against her wishes... it is still me.. the stubborn me.. the faja3 me... the passionate me... the jealous me... the selfish me... the prodigal me.. the TALKATIVE me.. the most worrying insomniac of the family..

I am still a failure when it comes to directions and locations... still the same...

I still cannot cope with numbers and calculations...

I am still the same.. Crying easily, but one single thought can make me laugh until my stomach hurts..

Still the same.. especially while taking decisions... I know what I want... & I trust my feelings even if, my family tries hard to convince me to have some different thoughts...

Still the same..

& will never change.. after all, this is my personality... & the things which are mentioned above are some of the components that make up my personality...

If I ever decide to get married, I hope that he will try to be at the same wave length with me... I hope that he will try to be my companion rather than a mere typical husband... I hope that he will value my heart even if he couldn't love me blindly... I am this kind of person who got used to so much attention, respect, and care (thanks goes to my brother, and uncles)... I easily wither if I am left ignored....

I am not asking for much! and I know that... I am not asking for materialisms or names... What I ask for is very simple, but very rare these days... وطبعا حلاة الشي ندرة وجوده

The rest of news will come later :)

Until I add another entry (which is gunna be posted very soon, I hope), I wish you  peaceful and happy life...