Miracle World.. ~ Never ever.. BORING world =)

19th|June|2010 5:23 PM They Tell Me...

- They tell me I am changed to the worse... & I do agree, BUT this is NORMAL, I guess. I went through a lot over the last 3 years... it is okay though... I am fine... it only needs time and patience... I always take time to heal my wounds.

- Life... O funny life! Sometimes I get the feelings that I am the most bad person among all others! Maybe because I am whiney like HOLDEN from The Catcher in the Rye!! But I always face those who shock me with their attitude.. people who intend hurting others with words in public.. even if the ones targeted to be hurt are their own friends! & the problems with words, that once they're said, they cannot be taken back! they leave very bad influence... only then that I realize how sweet & tender I turn to be... Only then I value myself even more... Only then I come to believe that I never throw my tantrums on others especially not on the close ones O_o

- Mi Familia... I do see some people falling in the realm of CRAZINESS. when I say crazy, I do mean CRAZY. Suddenly... everyone thinks of themselves, running after their needs and desires without turning back to look after their own children! they totally forgot كلكم راع وكلكم مسئول عن رعيته ... I am shocked! very shocked! How could a parent ignores the tears of the kids... and coldly, carries on... I mean, how could she or he just sleeep, knowing that their kid cannot sleep thinking of the very worrying future that the parents created??! Sometimes I cannot breathe well because of the shock! If my brother were here, things would be so different... So different.... but I am happy he's gone! Really, if I knew then that people would act this way, I would ask him to take me with him as well....

- Hospital... the most wonderful feeling is when I establish a rapport between me and the patient. Spending a few days at the clinic taught me a lot of lessons for life.

- Dreams................. I saw my brother. He was driving my car... and preparing to leave..... and he told me "May Allah Protect you Always" 3 times :') He is a Habibi, knowing how to light up even after death.... I can feel him telling me:

I am already there.... Take a look around... I'm the sunshine in your hair... I am the shadow on the ground... I am the whisper in the wind... I am your imaginary friend... and I know.. I am in your prayers...

I remember despite being so different... we used to have similar feelings, sharing one dream................................ and one laughter...... It is not very pleasing and tolerable to live without him being around.

- Reading.. I am reading The Gift by Cecelia Ahern... It is not very AMAZING, but it teaches a worthy lesson of TIME.

- Shopping........... Maybe I am buying more than eating. Me the Prodigal.. me the Faja3... Yeppeeeeeeeeeeeee I received my stuff from Disneystore.com, Apple.com, & Amazon.com I should stop shopping for a whole year now.. Please do remind me... I did promise myself not to purchase any new book in MAY. and I was as good as my word! this time, please remind me not to buy anything except if it is essential.

What I LOVED the most from my shopping was SNOW WHITE t-shirts (I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO POST THE PICS though) and SNOW WHITE Doll... Also, I loved TWEETY steering wheel cover.. and the cover of the seats.