25 | 7 | 2002 ( Message to my dearest... )

Well.. I'm sitting alone... I wish you were here sitting beside me... I didn't sleep well as you asked me to.. actually, I didn't sleep at all... everything turned out wrong again... why did you have to do this to me? why me? You were the most beautiful person I've ever known, not just outside, but inside, too. I gave you a loyalty that no one would give it 2 you... For as far as I can remember you've been a special person in my world... still, you're my everything, but unfortunately  you're not mine... I was simply happy to have you around to complain with and to share things with... I remember the first time that we really confided in one another & told each other things that we could not tell anyone else... I remember the first time  I was going to hug you... But I was too shy to do it... I didn't leave you because I wanted to... I sit here now... alright I'm smiling... And a little wave of sadness comes over me. I always miss having you around. But I still smile... After all, my missing you, is just another way of saying I love you... But missing you is something terrible... I can't endure it... I hope that you can always feel how very much I love you... It's hard to imagine my life, my secrets, without thinking of you... owaaa owaa ehi ehi ehi Why we're not just a little closer? All I can do is to tell you that I really do care about you. Far more than you'll ever know. If you ever need a caring heart, or someone to listen to your deepest dreams I'll be there for you... And If I should ever go away, well then close your eyes and try to imagine me telling you: " I miss you "

I lost something Invaluable... that could never be replaced... Never... I don't wanna be in this world... A river of Tears is rolling down my cheeks... I wish I could fly away...

Now pals, As you can see.. I can post some pics here... mm.. well.. coz finally I knew what was the problem... My cam was fine.. but the problem was in ma damn pc... My cam didn't cause errors in ma laptop... but I hate to keep updating ma site while I'm typing on ma laptop's keyboard... So you have to understand...

DXB GIRL, Don't call me plz... I'm Ashamed wallah...  

 

 

20 | 7 | 2002

Alright... woooh... I guess I must format my pc again! Photoshop causes so many errors in ma PC.. & I can't endure more errors... Well, I went to Wafi Center Again.. duuhh! actually it was a boring day... I didn't enjoy myself @ all... Maybe I was thinking of so many things.. That suddenly I felt I was going to faint...

What do you think??

I wish for you *e7im*... mmm, a place where you can live in harmony with nature & the rest of the world... magical nights... fun & excitement each day... serenity... people who care deeply about you... and whom you care about, too... memories of time and places that will always remain close to your heart... whishes made on stars that eventually friend you care to meeeee... I wish you a peaceful heart, a long & happy life... mmm, Am I too romantic???   

 

19 | 7 | 2002

Yesterday I dreamt of them again... Today It became true... Oh yes I'm so happy... I was waiting for that moment... I was going to fly.. up to the sky... Yeppeee... Now shut the door of your curiosity coz I'm trying to conceal everything... I won't reveal my secret... 

Mmm, yesterday I went to my grandma's house... the children were having a charming party.. Oh yes I had fun too.. I was a child!... hehehe why not? being a child is something really coooool.. wow.. not a wicked child but an innocent child<= for sure...

Owaa owaa owaa...  ehi ehi ehi ehi

Yukki..  ugly tongue.. j/k.. my Cow Girl! mwaa7zz

Well... I'm gonna change my "link" icon.. yeah I have to.. I really hate it.. mmm, where there is friendship, there is hope for the future. How hopeless can we feel when we have a friend who stands by us & sees our true potential??? DXB Girl, had made a new layout.. about Maruko.. lool... it's so cool...

I made a new wallpaper... Oh yes... about my yummy tiny tomato..  

 

17 | 7 | 2002

I'll start today to let go of my sadness... & I'll stop feeling sorry for myself... I'm so bored!

I made:

2 graphics: check this, about the lady who described how would she feel if she died in her lover's arms... expressing her emotions... & how she would be blessed in the beauty heaven... And check this... about remembrance... mmm, the poet gave his lover loyalty & love... but his lover... unfortunately, was cruel... she/he left him with his struggles...

2 wallpapers: check this, about the grumbler duck! & check this about my own fantasy  

I wanna tell you that Sensitive Girl is baaaaaaaaack! go go go go... sign in her bookie... & mismesha had made a new dazzling layout! add your comments about it in her bookie..  

14 | 7 | 2002

I woke up early today... I couldn't sleep well... Do u know why? well... Because I love her... She's my only grumbler... she's my everything... lol... Do u know her??? My dearly loved.. my my my stomach... Yesterday my aunt came over & she suggested to go to to to to to to to to Coco's <== (my favorite restaurant) to have our dinner... But it was too late to go  there... I hate crowds... I really hate crowds... & it was impossible to convince my self that it wasn't crowded there.... you know the place which I'm talking about... ( City Center )... 

So we decided to go today to have our lunch... Oh Oh Oh I ate that yummy shrimp with its sauce... How tasty it was!!! 

As usual, Dubai's Girl was missing... Nannannaaaa.. hehehe.. but my sis was with me

& we went to al magrudy library... I bought ( 365 ways to change your life) book by Suzanne Omers'... So CoOoL! 

I believe that we are who we choose to be.

Nobody is going to come & save you...

You've got to save yourself.

nobody is going to give you anything.

You've got to go out & fight for it.

Nobody knows what you except you,

& nobody will be sorry as u.... if you don't get it... 

So don't give up on your dreams...  

 

13 | 7 | 2002

I'm here again with a preferential mood... Wow... Could I really be in a different world again? My particular world... This may sound silly to you... but my world is so calm.. so rare... where all my wishes become true... where I can live with my memories... where no more cruel people... Yesterday when I got to bed & tried to sleep... My heart was biting me so bad... I could scarcely breathe... I could scarcely smile... that's why I'm in a different world now... I'm trying to avoid those negative feelings...

Mmm.. When I'm feeling negative, I try to love myself I look in the mirror & say to myself: I love you! hey I'm not crazy... It's true! you've got to treat yourself like you would your best friend respect! You'll be giggling in minutes.... 

So add five things that bring a smile to your face in my (comment box)... Add, ok? Otherwise I won't update my page... I made two wallpapers... check 'em out...  

Dubai's Girl, Nannannaaaa... I bought this notebook... " Romantic Pink Hana "  

 

11 | 7 | 2002

Yesterday I dreamt of them... It was an extraordinary dream... My eyes had welled up with tears so much... I could scarcely see ... Owaaa the same things are happening now to someone else... I was too stunned when I heard it... I was feeling so dejected... I'm not as happy as I once was...  ya7lailee

So I was planning on going to this marvelous place...

Someone was missing... Dubai's girl Actually I caught a glimpse @ your vision...

But it didn't work.. coz u weren't there... I looked as miserable as you've ever seen me...

When I returned back home... I saw this sight.. & finally I burst out laughing... n3oool..   

 

9 | 7 | 2002

<= The audience, Can u answer the Question?

I can't answer it... Would u mind helping me plz.. I'm being so silly, right?

Alright.. Alright.. I'll change the topic... This morning I decided to visit my rabbits... 

there was a very bad stench.. I was going to faint! thanks God I'm still alive.. stinkers.. yukky!

Allaaah!! what a well-arranged line! lol

Do you wish? do you wish for yourself? or for another person? ok Pals, can u tell me your wishes? Hmm.. I know that some of them should never be told... or maybe you prefer to keep your wishes in a safe place until they'll become true... Hmm.. I have some simple wishes for someone oblivious... I just wish you good friends to call on... & a faithful heart to keep u near from your GOD... Remember, things don't always work out for the best in life.. but you can make the best of everything... Am I talking to the walls? Yeah I guess...  

 

8 | 7 | 2002

Co ro lo lo lo leeey... *aza'3red* My cam.. Is finally back.. *fdait'ha*... When I saw her I hugged her & I smiled @ her.. do u know how did she react? Hehe she simply smiled back... & she gave me an innocent look <== expressing that she really missed me too... there were tears in her *lens*... Well, do u know why??? she wanted to hug me but she couldn't... *ya7lailha* she doesn't have arms... but she was so brilliant.. I love her I love her..   

At least, my shoes are better than my sis's zannoba, do u agree? 

Some people don't like (Black & White) pic's... But I really like 'em so much... Actually Dubai's girl was the one who persuaded me to snap some (Black & white) shots... I don't know how to express my gratitude to her... Whenever I dream about anything... She must be the first one to know... whether it was a dream or a fantasy... or even a cry,a laugh... anything anything... she shares it with me *razzeh*... God bless her...

In all facets of life, its important to have someone to trust & confide in with your hopes, dreams, and times of struggle... Wallah it's so important to me ya3nee... I don't know whether I met Dubai's girl by chance or she was sent in my way?! Actually she was such an obstacle in my way.. lool j/k.. she's my only gleam that lightens my obscure path.. I'd better go... I wanna read somethin... or maybe I'll watch ( Pearl Harbor )...

Day after day... time passed away & I just can get you out of my mind... Nobody knows, I hide it inside I keep on searching but I just can't find the courage to show to let you know... I've never felt love like this before...  

 

5 | 7 | 2002

Hiii.... Missing me?? I know you... I know... I wasn't busy at all... And to be honest I was so bored... But I really missed my cam... you know, I couldn't update my site without posting some pics ... & They didn't fix the problem till now! Besides, I made an enormous mistake... I wasn't even aware of it...  What can I say??  I'm being jealous of them.. Or maybe I'm protecting jealousy... I don't know!! I didn't sleep well.. I didn't eat well... And damn my room is in terrible disarray I heard something I didn't want to hear... Mmm, Am I seem so vague to you? All of you! I think so...  But those who know me would know what did I mean... I just don't know how to express my feelings & thoughts very well...

Oh damn... what is she talking about? Maybe she's crazy ... Otherwise, she's frenzy! Miracle, yal complainer don't grumble a lot... I advise u to keep your mouth shut!

Pals, If you have a problem & you don't know what to do, sometimes it's a good idea to advise yourself as though you're giving advice to someone else. After all, you know yourself better than anyone...

Don't ask me how did I add the comment box again!! Coz wallah I'm amazed! I played in my HTML section... wo cheeh... If any  error appears again... without thinking I'll delete the comment box again!

What do u think of the new wallpaper?

I'd better go now Bye bye!