I need a place where
I can go
Where I can whisper what I know
Where I can whisper who I like
And where I go to see them
I need a place where I can hide
Where no one sees my life inside
Where I can make my plans, and write them down
So I can read them...
A place where I can bid my heart be still
And it will mind me.
A place where I can go when I am lost,
And there I'll find me.
I need a place to spend the day,
Where no one says to go or stay,
Where I can take my pen and draw
The girl I mean to be.
I was sitting by the
window.. when suddenly... someone gently asked me to take a look at
this. Yes it takes forever to load, but.......... it's a
heart-capturing. Soon, you'll find yourself shedding tears... Don't
miss it.. the music, the words, the art will absolutely take you to a
dreamy place that is in you... "But if you feel the pain of
the other person more than him even when he's stable and you cry for
him.. that's LOVE.. If you get attracted to other people but stay with
him without any regret.. That's Love.. If you let him go knowing
that he has to go but he doesn't want to.. That's love."
Well done.. Miracle
Man.
30th|July|2006
5:36
AM
Wham, bam, thank you, ma’am
and finally, I've finished reading THE BROTHERS K
by David James Duncan, and it was a great read =) I do recommend
it, but you need to know that it's a slow-read. Also, a lot of
baseball talks are included in the novel. I am this kind of person who
doesn't understand a thing about baseball.
However, I
continued reading it, because this novel holds a beautiful meaning of
a family that struggled to stay together despite the differences and
hardships it had among its members. There were times when I
laughed until my stomach hurt me so much.. and there were times when
it ripped my heart out and made me sob, sob and sob. By the way, The "K"
in sport means "strikeout" and in the novel, it means a "home run"...
Overall, it's a huge novel which talks about politics, religion,
baseball, love, real brotherhood and much much more. I am glad I did
read it.
To dxb gurl, read "the brothers K".. I was wrong
when I told u that u have to read (The brothers karmazov) first.
I am planning to read SHANTARAM =) which means
"man of God's peace" it is highly recommended by
her
I do like the strong green tea with mint of STARBUCKS
=)
Final words: Scarlett, welcome back =) you've
been missed..
27th|July|2006
5:15
PM
Last night........ >_<!!! I was
exercising.. Awanni exercising!! :P elmhm, as usual,
many thoughts crossed my mind & some of them were extremely
terrifying... right after exercising a lil bit, I took a break of 5
minutes to meditate... & I really
felt fresh and active..
After a short while, I saw my uncle :D
and he was nervous!! So, from the look of his face I knew that his
baby boo is gunna join this crazy world soon :p
Then Flee appeared, she was
fighting against her clothes and abaya, wearing them so quickly as if
time was gunna stop if she lowered her speed. Indeed, she looked
nervous as well.
SOOOOOOO, I knew that she and my uncle
decided to head to the hospital!! the sooner the better.. and I
wanted to go with them! coz I made a mistake last time when I couldn't
visit HER <=(uncle's wife) in the hospital and regret
has been chasing me ever then. so, I rushed to my room.. wore my stuff
within 2 minutes... got out of my burrow again... Saw my uncle and
felt relieved that he waited for me, got in his car... and finally I
could breathe.....
In the car, I saw some messages that
left me deranged, gloomy and frightened.. Indeed, my eyes grew watery.
Even though I knew that such tidings were coming, I felt shocked...
I don't even exist in their world.. I don't wanna talk about how I feel right now... I deserve that,
because I've been such a blithering idiotttttttttttttt who cared so
much about careless ones!
In the hospital, the 3 of us were
runninggggg.. I could hear my heart's beats... I don't know why my
heart was about to sink to the floor lol.. maybe It happens when sadness
collides with happiness...... The more I thought about the thing I saw
back when I was in the car, the greater was my pain..... anyways, I
couldn't get it out of my mind until I saw HER :') I can't
express my feelings though! I looked at her and I knew that I loved
this woman so much.. I looked at her and I felt the sisterhood running
through my veins... In one moment, I could sacrifice with everything
for that woman! she has become very special to me even though she's
not that close... I don't tell her everything! yet I feel she knows me
well :) I turned around to see the purple creature who's just came to
this world. I smiled, for I felt that life has a beautiful meaning
once we realize it :)
Now, sorry alright.. maybe you got
annoyed coz it wasn't the appropriate time to visit YOU :p I was
nervous and I couldn't think properly... BUT, what to say.. sometimes
when we love certain people
, we just wanna please
them... sometimes we don't even know how. elmhm, I hope you
know you're so precious to me... I used to love my uncle so
much.. much more than you could ever imagine! maybe because my soul
resembles his in a way.. and believe me, now I do love you the same
way I love him.
Oops sorry I forgot to say
MABROOOOOOOOOK :p
Final thing I'd like to say: I was so
happy to see Petal, and her sister =) I used to see her
sister in our uni.. BUT I never knew or realized how wonderful she is
until I chit-chatted with her yesterday.
25th|July|2006
5:00
PM
Yesterday I had a wonderful time with my family =) I am
glad I didn't miss the meeting of all the children... and today, I had
a great time with aunt M. I went with her to the dentist, SWAROVSKI,
clarks, baskin robbins, JAPINGO and then MAGRUDY <= my love =)
Dear aunt,
Your pain has become mine... I wish I
could ease it all... The more you spoke of it, the more you reminded
me of the shocks I've been receiving from the most precious
ones. Coz I was a fool when I believed them... indeed, it was
nothing but a hoax that they created for me... "Why did they act so
devilish in the end?" indeed, they were devils from the very
start, but I was blind to see the truth.. & the love I had for them
helped me to forgive their mistakes without being more reasonable to
let it all go...
Oh aunty...
The taste of "betrayal" is extremely
bitter.... May Allah grant you patience... Inshallah, your pain will be eased.
24th|July|2006
5:00
PM
I feel like I wanna
keep on reading until the end of time.. Yet, there are other
priorities which have been placed on top of my list.
...........................
{And of knowledge, you [mankind] have
been given only little} [Qur'an 17:85] ... EVEN IF YOU'RE
the most popular scientist.. even if you're the smartest person ever..
TO YOU I SHALL SAY,
قل لمن يدعي في العلم معرفة
علمت شيئا وغابت عنك أشياء
btw, I'll always repeat this line..
Until you get rid of the haughtiness you have in u.
Wonderful bOok.. Good choice uncle. ;)
My lovely jamoca almond =) YUMMY
drawn by flee
Everything has changed in me.. and it's normal of
course.. except for one thing.. one thing remained constant..
~I never thought that I'd have to wear socks and a
jacket before getting into bed!! I used to LOVE ACs, but not
anymore... These days, I feel so cold and I can't switch off the ac
coz perhaps I've been used to its freaky sounds, lol! So, I wear a
jacket, socks, and I cover myself very well that I don't even let my
nose be exposed to the room's atmosphere. Honestly, I get annoyed by
the fact that I can't live with Acs and I can't live without them too.
It's a real sickness!! If I switch it off, I'll wake up late at night
because of the dreadful hot AIR...
~I never thought that I'd love chocolates other than
twix and kit kat... come & see me 2day :p I taste first, then I
judge... now I like many other kinds of chocolate.
~I am talkative, but I am thinking of being more silent
rather than being a blithering idiot! lol
~I never thought of thinking about wearing sporty
sketchers instead of high-heels sandals. As you know, heels add more
"womanliness" and beauty to us especially BOOTS.. BUT now, I am
desperately thinking of wearing funky sketchers in some places such as
UNI and Emirates mall... EMirates mall is way too huge and one MUST
keep on walking for so long in it.. As SOCRATES said:
"راحتك تبدأ من راحة
قدميك"
So, If I ever insist on wearing heels,
I'll have to practice certain exercises for my feet every now and
then.. I'll also have to indulge my feet by putting on gentle creams
over and under it twice a day.
~Suddenly I turned
to be very sensitive to LIGHTS.. When I enter my room I switch off all
the lights.. I keep the soft ones ON.. usually, I light up a candle..
Also, I can't get my driving license these days, coz I hate to drive
in the mornings, noons or afternoons I get pretty annoyed by the sun.
AND yes It's a great deal to meeee :p
I prefer being nocturnal.
This baby
Boo is mine =) by the way she's a Pisces
However, I
continued reading it, because this novel holds a beautiful meaning of
a family that struggled to stay together despite the differences and
hardships it had among its members. There were times when I
laughed until my stomach hurt me so much.. and there were times when
it ripped my heart out and made me sob, sob and sob. By the way, The "K"
in sport means "strikeout" and in the novel, it means a "home run"...
Overall, it's a huge novel which talks about politics, religion,
baseball, love, real brotherhood and much much more. I am glad I did
read it.
& I really
felt fresh and active..
I don't wanna talk about how I feel right now... I deserve that,
because I've been such a blithering idiotttttttttttttt who cared so
much about careless ones!
, we just wanna please
them... sometimes we don't even know how. elmhm, I hope you
know you're so precious to me... I used to love my uncle so
much.. much more than you could ever imagine! maybe because my soul
resembles his in a way.. and believe me, now I do love you the same
way I love him.
I feel like I wanna
keep on reading until the end of time.. Yet, there are other
priorities which have been placed on top of my list.
~Suddenly I turned
to be very sensitive to LIGHTS.. When I enter my room I switch off all
the lights.. I keep the soft ones ON.. usually, I light up a candle..
Also, I can't get my driving license these days, coz I hate to drive
in the mornings, noons or afternoons I get pretty annoyed by the sun.
AND yes It's a great deal to meeee :p 
I prefer being nocturnal.
This baby
Boo is mine =) by the way she's a Pisces
