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11 | 8 | 2002 8:17 PM
I'm in Germany now... I
dunno what to say!! the weather is cool... the shopping.. mmm is not
baaaaaaaaaad... well.. lemme tell u what happened in the plane... I
was too tired that I couldn't bear 2 stay awake!! so I slept for a
while... then one crazy servant came 2 wake me up!! God!! I saw him
staring at me with an astonishing look...
What's up?
10 | 8 | 2002 1:56 AM
Anyways... our flight will be on Mon....
As usual... My room is in terrible disarray... we're packing our things...
no comment....
I went 2 City Center, The black doll is for DxB girl...
This baby shoe is for me...
Mmm, I had my lunch in Coco's... yummy!
Tasty!
:P I wanna drive
Sweara..
DXB girl is fine... so don't worry
I'm ashamed of being sensitive like this way... I can't forget
anything.... yeah she doesn't deserve it!! but this is me... I won't
blame myself....
My annoying lil bro..
If I could have you back tomorrow.... If I could lose the pain and sorrow.... I would do just anything.... To make you see you still love me...
6 | 8 | 2002 7:26 PM
well... I started reading " Message in a bottle " By Nicholas
Sparks... still in chapter 5! I read the message which was in the
bottle...
July 22, 1997, My dearest Catherine, I miss you, my darling, as I always do, but today is especially hard because the ocean has been singing to me, & the song is that of our life together. I can almost feel you beside me as I write this letter, & I can smell the scent of wildflowers that always reminds me of you. but at this moment, these things give me no pleasure. your visits have been coming less often, And I feel sometimes as if the greatest part of who I am is slowly slipping away. I am trying, though at night when I'm alone, I call for you, & whenever my ache seems to be the greatest, you still seem to find a way to return to me. last night, in my dreams, I saw you on the pier near Wrightsville beach. The wind was blowing through your hair, & your eyes held the fading sunlight. I am struck as I see you leaning against the rail. you are beautiful, I think as I see you, a vision that I can never find in anyone else. I slowly begin to walk toward you, & when you finally turn to me, I notice that others have been watching you as well. "Do you know her?" they ask me in jealous whispers, and as you smile at me, I simply answer with the truth. "Better than my own heart." I stop when I reach you and take you in my arms. I long for this moment more than any other. It is what I live for, and when you return my embrace, I give myself over to this moment, at peace once again. I raise my hand and gently touch your cheek & you tilt your head and close your eyes. My hands are hard and your skin is soft, and I wonder for a moment if you'll pull back, but of course you don't. You never have, and it is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life. I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you. I am here to learn from you and to receive your love in return. I am here because there is no other place to be. but then, as always, the mist starts to form as we stand close to one another. It is a distant fog that rises from the horizon, and I find that I grow fearful as it approaches. It slowly creeps in, enveloping the world around us, fencing us in as if to prevent escape. Like a rolling cloud, it blankets everything, closing, until there is nothing left but the two of us. I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go. The look you give me at that moment haunts me. I feel your sadness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent for only a short time grows stronger as you realise me. And then you spread your arms and step back into the fog because it is your place and not mine. I long to go with you, but your only response is to shake your head because we both know that it is impossible. And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away. I find myself straining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you. But soon, always too soon, your image vanishes and the fog rolls back to its faraway place and I am alone on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head and cry and cry and cry. Garrett
Well.. Finally I decided to travel abroad with ma uncle,
lil sis & ma cousin.... Guess where? Owaaaa... aaa... Germany!! I
think it will be on Saturday morning.... ekekeeke we're following our
dad.. lool.. he's there... spending his time with his friends... Don't
miss me ok? I'll be right back in less than 3 weeks....
DxB girl, you didn't come over!!! I forgave you inzain... Chaw
I'm listening to this....
4 | 8 | 2002 6:35 AM Staying
up @ night is something terrible...
Yesterday,
me... ma annoying sis
And daaddy... went to Coco's
What
are you staring @?
Those lights were dancing..
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Explosion!!
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As
u can see.. I'm posting so many pics.. just 2 keep your mouth shut...
lool.. j/k.. Don't ask me to update ma page again... I mentioned the
reason before... I hate 2 update ma page while I'm on my laptop.... My
old pc is OLD... He's sick of everything
"
A walk to remember "... By Nicholas Sparks.... First you'll
smile.. maybe you'll laugh... And then you'll cry as I did..
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lool.. do u know why?? Because my
scarf wasn't on ma head!! ".. And my hair was crispy... he said: " good morning " I answered him
back: ' no thanks "... I thought he was saying : " Can I help you ? ".. lool.. I was sleepy... I couldn't recognize anything....
after that the servant came back again & asked me whether 2 have tuna
or Ketch for lunch... daaamn what's ketch?? don't laugh!!! I said: " I
prefer kitchen meal " <= instead of saying " chicken "....
oh yes.. he burst out laughing at
me 
mmm... do u wanna know what
happened @ the airport??? they thought we were terrorists!!
they asked us so many questions.. " why did you came 2 Germany? " "
Who invited you ? " " How much money did u get with u? " " in which
hotel will u stay?, with whom?, for how long? ".. etc...
It's so lonely being alone in the
night... I was watching the moonlight... suddenly, it was paling....
no it wasn't paling... I was crying that I couldn't recognize his
vision, his vision was in the brightest star.... unfortunately, his
image was vanishing among the darkness... I was imaging him alive....
I was smiling & I saw him smiling @ me too... I can't take it no
more.... I feel my heart moaning & crying inside... I wish I had gone
with him.... It was as if part of me were dead inside... I can't
describe the pain... The pain I feel deep inside... He was such a
good, kind, loving grandfather.... He's sorely missed.
why things turn out the way they do?
Life doesn't often turn the way we think it will.... 
ehehe.. I have so many pranks
planned for her....
I'm gonna fly
a way.... I'm gonna enjoy ma time.... 
wanna read it?
Owaaaaa.... aaaa... aaaa.... The
most touching words I've ever read....
.....
Especially when you're sitting with your annoying lil sis... Well... 
I had that
lovely shrimp... yummy... After a while... I thought of (
..
she rescued me... I dunno how 2 express ma gratitude 2 her... Well...
Thanks god I'm still the same person...
Hehehe
so.. be patient.. I won't fly away, though it's ma wish...
Have you ever been in love? If it's " No " you should read
it... If it's " yes " you should read it too... It's so emotional...
so touching... I cannot adequately describe it...
I watched the movie... I guess you know with whom! with ma annoying
lil