I think I talk too much and some people
are best to avoid if possible... I MEAN ITTTTT they really get on my
nerves sometimes. anyways, I'm so pleased to hear that all the Israeli
ppl will be given 48 hours to get out from GAZZAAAA...It means a
lot 2 us I feel so happy for all our brothers and sisters in Palestine :D
This is because their fights are based on constant principle and
faith..
I LOVE THIS
NASHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDA :D
A tiny, lifeless body,
All wrapped in white,
Janazah prayers are done,
Day turns to night.
Another faceless casualty
Of injustice and hate.
How can one so innocent
Suffer such a fate?
His smile was a guiding light,
His laughter, a sweet song.
A father's grief, a mother's tears
Flowing all night long.
Broken toys are scattered,
Heaps of rubble on the ground.
No more laughing children,
Bitter weeping, the only sound.
The innocence of childhood
Savagely taken away.
Hollow faces filled with pain,
Look too old to play.
A lifetime filled with sorrow,
With rage and bitter pain.
We ask Allah for victory,
Our prayers are not in vain!
mmm, by the way, I have something for
you guys.. you can download
حصن
المسلم it's very
nice...
HEY, I got a lovely powerpoint slides too...
"how 2 be happy" CHECK it out
here
It was raining ;)
The doctor ordered a healthy tea ;)
I DO LIKE STABILO
BUT I don't like diddle... :P mmm, I
think I'm eager to buy pencil cases...
They're annoying me when I try TO update
this page... LOL so I guess I have to say ADIOS now ;p or BIS BALD
whatever.......
14|8|2005 4:42 PM
My mind is racing with all the ideas & thoughts that rolled across it last
night..
There is this memory which is a good
example of hypocrisy and deception. I never mentioned it before, but
it's always with me... running through my veins... Leaving me in a
desperate confusion & seclusion.
When I was in grade 4 till grade 8 I
used to offer my friendship easily to everyone.
Once upon a time, I called a girl by
mistake. I dialed a wrong number.. And when the girl picked up the
phone she pretended to be the one whom I asked for... @first I had no
idea that she was making fun... lol After a while, she told me that
she was not the one and she started talking about herself and her
school "she was younger than me in a different school" Anyways, she
was so nice and friendly.. She used to have a sense of humor
which I was so crazy about :p After two years, she came to my school.
LOL she was searching for me and when she found me we were both in
total shock. I was in grade 8 back then... I was this kind of a
person who indulged herself very much.
I used to wear Tweety ornaments
from head to toe :p And I disliked tying my hair.. It used to flow on
my shoulders.. It gave me the feeling of freedom. :P & sometimes I
preferred to cut it shorter to look even cuter & younger.
And my uniform did have a lot of
pockets. A big one over the chest... I used to put a mirror and a
brush to comb my hair inside... Also, two pockets on my hips for
bubble gum, lollipops and coins. There was a pocket on my back too :p
Now, the gurl was so different than me.
She used to make her hair in plait *3goo9* & wear shaila too.
Nevertheless, we got a log with each other.. & I saw her mum several
times... We were not best friends, but we were a bit close..
There was an annoying person from my
friend's family
who didn't leave us in peace. That
person used to put us in troubles and our friendship started to
collapse... Maybe because that person was a teenager & diving in the
ocean of craziness... I don't know the specific reason though. Me and
my friend had to leave each other to avoid all the problems we went
through because of that person..
Years passed by & I forgot about that
person... but I didn't forget about my friend... I used to call her
occasionally just to say hi, but I discovered that she was
trying to bring a lot of excuses to leave.. I didn't know why!! but it
happened & I didn't know the reason.
Later, I've found out that they've been
talking behind my back.. (MY friend and that person said thingssss
that weren't true & so unfair) THEY claimed that
I was talking behind their
mum's back several times. I don't remember that I said a
bad thing about their mum.. why would I say bad things about her? I
was so innocent.. I never cared about the outward appearances. It
shocked the hell out of me...
I didn't get the chance to meet with my
friend coz I joined another high school in grade 12... I will make sure to
tell her everything FACE-2-FACE even if she won't believe it. But thaaaaaaat person was evilllllll...
That person did not stop annoying.. This year something silly
happened... I still wonder why they did ittttt.... I mean what's the
point? Oh you think that I didn't know about it? I knew it was you
from the very start... U still talk behind my back, huh? and with
whom? with someone so dear to me? You know I could put you in so much
trouble, but I am not that type.
You started spying on me and my friend
while we were talking on the phone.. I thought you did those silly
things because u were a child back then.. BUT I guess you'll always
remain a child AND you ended it this way... I
really wonder what kind of a person u r... so ingenious in
devilishness... PLZ get a life. When u wanna say something...
Don't mess around with children and people who are close to me.. Next
time TALK to me directly..
13|8|2005 12:14 PM
Yesterday we spent the afternoon in the
hotel.. ZZzzZZzz I slept and so did my sis....
B-fleeeeeee can't live happily without
pepsi :p thank God I didn't order pepsi
She ordered pizzzzzzzzzzzza for us :p it
was yummmy
Late at night we went for a walk
again... I can't describe my feelings when the fresh air touches me
softly... I feel so wowy..
As if there were no benches to sit on..
:/ lol hanging... Those guys enjoy
making fun of others..
RICE.. RICE.. I will gain weight :p
Today, I went for shopping... Gosh, I
walked a lot... I liked this bag.. It's funky.
I was looking for a good
baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaag, and I've found one.. it was PURPLE RABBIT
FUR.. Limited edition... full of love and passion I wanted it so
much.. I won't sleep till I get it... I don'tttttttttt enjoy shopping
though, BUT I kept that one in my mind... I thought I would see
something that would steal my heart in another shop, but I didn't.
That purple one captured me entirely..
Aunt got this nice bag.. It's nice
for occasions... Why do we feel so happy when we buy nice things? :p I
feel they're my own property... AND I do keep each and every piece.. I
don't throw anything... Everything is valuable and precious.. I adore
Swarovski rings and Chopard diamond... I don't like to purchase
gold unless I find a unique piece...
By the way, aunt is a blessing for me..
The wound is being healed.. It's all because of her medical
experiences :D special thanks goes to her.
For dinner, we went to an Afghanistani
restaurant.. The food was fresh and healthy, but too SPICY.. I hate
pepper.. Unlike my sis B-flee who's crazy about spicy food :p
Mmmm, I kept on drinking evian water to satisfy my thirst...
I wanted to have Kulfi , but there was
no kulfi nor falooda :( but they got us tasty sweets instead..
12|8|2005 4:14 PM
What do you think of my Las Vegas
Jacket?
Believe it or not.. This is supposed to
be vegetarian
NOODLES... We were waiting and waiting for them, and we were so
shocked when we saw them... Does this look like noodles?
Nice
After that we went to MOVENPICK again...
YUMMY I had a tasty ice-cweam...
Umeeeeeeeh balak?
5aggaaaaaaaaaaaag :p
My aunt was viewing this
site.. It's
about diabetes and its prevention... I liked it very much..
This is
informative too.
YAAAAAAAAAAAY.. I think my cousins will
join us soon :D I hope they didn't change negatively...
...............
The dreadful wash of feelings
Someone was asking me about the
existence of pain and why it is still there... I didn't know what to
say and I couldn't banish all the waves of sadness that rushed across
my mind... Yes we can't get rid of pain but we can ease it....... & I
couldn't ease it... I do live with it... I am being surrounded by
it... I do lie to myself a lot.. I DO PRETEND A LOT OF THINGS when I
examine myself.... In other words, I am not being frank with myself...
The reasons behind it are countless..
what happened happened... and the past is already gone... :) I just do
need my twin soul to be around these days.....
What I need now.. is one thing........
the pure Understanding of my parents... I do need it... They can ease
everything... BUT they're making it seem more worse... one word from
my dad can leave me in misery and despair......
8|8|2005 5:08 PMAbroad. (2 posts in
one update)
There wasn't a chance to say good bye to
the precious ones. "sorry".
I was shocked when I saw tears in my
cousin's eyes (angel) or (s). :) don't worry sweety I will come back
soon inshallah.
I apologize to all my friends especially
UNKNOWN AND DXB GIRL. I woke up late on Sunday.. and I couldn't answer
the phone coz I had to prepare my luggage..
Fdait el BoooBoo ;)
:p a doctor who's supposed to be a good
example of a
diabetic nutritionist. come to see what she eats almost all the time. :p
we ate a lot before getting into the
plane. Jamucca Almond, cinnabon *but I don't like sinnabon*, and
finally b-flee got us Dunkin Donuts :D
:) inside the plane..
Writing while eating inside.. I can't
stop writing.
I couldn't sleeeeeeep inside the plane
nor on bed inside the room of the hotel and I am still awake.. I look like this o_O
Above the Clouds
The airporrrrt
Today, we've met a man with his wife in
the park.. He started chit chatting about two words (inshallah
and mashallah) and when to use them.. we also talked about
Dubai.. :p and then he started talking about his country.. I loved the
chats.. And while he was talking, he didn't keep a distance between
him and me and I was stepping backward.. That made his wife gesturing
toward him to keep a distance and he was so sweet when he apologized
:p. at last he invited us to his house.. he said: "you can come with
your parents and have tea + coffee.. if you want Vodka it willl be ok
too.. We can mix orange juice with vodka so that God won't be able to
see" he was kidding about the vodka and all, but I was a little bit
annoyed!!!!!! I said: "You can never hide things from God".
These days, a lot of people wanna learn
Arabic to know more about Islam and our culture just because they're
curious and they LIKE it. as ifffffffff, it's a matter of likes and
dislikes. I wonder when they'll stop contradicting themselves.
;) I ADORE MUGS ( a gift from my lil sis
)
And this is something I've never heard
of be4.. I'm thinking of purchasing one..
الله يرحم الداعية أحمد
ديدات ويجمعنا معه في الجنان
He was the one who motivated us to learn
more about religions and languages... I was talking about him with my
uncle before the day he died and how his books influenced me..
Almakkawi used to talk about him and encouraged us to visit him.. he
gave us his address and everything in south Africa..
Ahmed Deedat will always be in our hearts..
I remember the day I wrote
this
sourcing my info from his books.. I remember...
She wrote more
about him. ((BY THE WAY HE'S INDIAN))
10|8|2005 2:54
Well today was a very long day... I
wounded myself and I saw blooddddddddddddddd :( yes it does hurt.
You know I am not where I am supposed to
be.. I don't like this place, but surprisingly I am still surviving..
I adore Berlin a lot and I don't think I will be able to go there :'(
that means I won't see my cousins. Anyway, today I talked with mum a
lot.. I complained about uni and how I hate to be there again, yet I
didn't get a satisfying answer... *sigh * at least she listened and
that gave me a ray of hope that came all of a sudden. for your
information, {I traveled just to have a chance to talk with
herrrrrrrrr because I missed her and I was all alone at home}
I don't wanna remain depressed and I am
thinking of my future careeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer.. and I need good
listeners.
WELL I STILL THINK OF MEDICINE.. shh shh
shh
*Hmph, (Mi familia)
;) wowy, I enjoy family meetings these
days.. Thank God, I feel I'm normal now :p At least I get the chance
to talk with them and they're good listeners ;) the weather can really
change our moods..
Today we hanged out with our uncle ;)
@first we went to DIOR BOUTIQUE *as usual* and I didn't like anything.
then we had our dinner at an Iranian restaurant.. The fooood was wowy
(full of love and passion)... After that we went to (moven pic or move
in pic or move n pic or moving pic or move and pic restaurant)
errrrrrrr whatever... just to have tea and ice-cweam ;) my uncle
is very picky when it comes to food and drinks :p
Late at
night........................................
an apple..
I went with my aunt for a walk... I'm
nocturnal :D I love walking alone at night.. I don't mind walking with
a friend or someone whom I can understand... She was frank and lovely
that I didn't want her to stop talking... She left positive impacts on
me. :') by the way, I call her "The Scarlet of the family"...
