My dad has changed his mind! he
headed to Jabal 3ali!! not to El 3ain
as I mentioned in the previous update!
Unfortunately, I didn't enjoy my
time in jabal 3ali ... Don't ask why!
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Dear friend,
I used to wonder what I would do
if I didn't have you to talk to, to listen to, to be myself
with, to ask your opinion when I need another point of view, &
to help me do something I need to get done. I guess I'd be
talking to myself a lot because I can't imagine
anyone taking your place. It really meant a lot to me that
you were always there for me..
It was a good feeling to know you
were not just there for me in the fair weather but in the bad,
too... You didn't mind helping me with the boring
stuff when two heads are better than one. We've been through a
lot of changes together, & I guess that's why you are very
special to me.
You were easy to be around... You
were such a beautiful example of a caring person... @ first We
balanced each other with our differences... Then you completed
me & made me happy to be alive..
Well I can say that... This
precious friendship has languished lately... I forgave you & I
didn't blame you, for it was your heart's choice *not your
fault*!! The word (sorry) was never enough... Because I could
imagine myself separating from the whole world, but not from you
in any way... It was my fault to never expect or even think of
that day! You'll be my friend... But something inside of me has
changed... it's so deeeeeeeeep Maybe because it was a terrible
shock that I couldn't believe @ first! Maybe because I've been
deceived by someone before & I couldn't stand the idea of losing
you... what I really know is something inside of me has changed
toward you...
You were number one then come the
rest... But now... there's no number one anymore, for I won't
replace your place with anyone...
I was hinting... It was obvious
enough that I was annoyed... What made you so busy that u
couldn't visit your friend? What made you so busy that u didn't
call me constantly?? Actually you were busy with your thoughts!!
I used to call you no matter how the circumstances were against
me.. I used to call you when someone in our family died... I
used to call you when I had to study for exams.. I used to call
you when I was outside the country... Still u say you were
busy?? please compare how you were & how you've become...
You've changed a lot just to
please her... And you weren't honest with me! You thought I
wouldn't know the whole story.. You thought I wouldn't feel what
was going on... Was I that dumb in your eyes? I never preferred
*someone* on you.. nor did I show you that I've changed... It
didn't affect our friendship @ all...
The worse thing ever was when
every time I was asking u to do me a favor & u were refusing...
Why did you refuse??? wasn't it because of her?? wasn't it just
to please her? I sometimes insisted to ask you again & again
just to hear your reply, wishing that u would feel what you were
actually ruining... When I needed you, I couldn't find you..
When I asked for help... You refused... why were we friends
then?? From my experience... I've learnt that there's nothing
like true friendship.. Unfortunately, you didn't learn what I've
learned... & you don't want to... You should cherish it... value
it... For it's too rare nowadays...
I wouldn't sacrifice for *someone*
& leave you behind... I would sacrifice with the whole world
just for you & you oNly.. ask anyone.. ask your heart... You'll
know that what u used to have is something invaluable...
It might be like losing me... I
don't know... I really don't... Maybe this wound will be healed
someday...
